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@ in loving memory of AMAL.. @

this is gonna be my last post before going home.

4 more days to brunei but coming home has never felt this sad before. i found out around 5.35p.m. u.k. time when one of my best friends texted me saying my best friend, who's suffered from lung cancer and brain tumor has passed away peacefully. i couldn't believe what i read, so i called them only to find myself crying. it's bad enough i wasn't there when she was sick, but when she let out her final breath, i wasn't even in the same country. Being comforted by my friends, through texts and on the phone telling me to be patient and just pray for her. i know she can see me now. :) i love you babe! you always know that! but i'll cry a river for you here till the day i'm back with the girls. we'll always remember you!!!

Nuramal Hafezarina Ismail born on 11th Dec 1982. She was the eldest daughter in the family and she has one brother and a youngest sister whom she loved to BITS! She finished her 'a' levels in 2000 and she has been the one best friend i would never trade for anything in the whole wide world. we've been best friends since 1997 and she had been there for me every inch of the way, through failures and success she had never left my side. she had been my light, one of my strengths of which i could still carry on living here, she was my counsellor, the only one who understand me for real, and i'm gonna miss her even more now she's gone. I know Allah loves you more than we do, babygirl, and i know you're in a better place now. and i know you'll look over us here cause babygirl, you're the angel.. :) I love you loads!! :'(

my deepest condolence goes to her family, her bf of 5 years, and everyone who got the chance to know this wonderfully amazing and strong girl i never thought i'd be that lucky to have in my life.

forever in my heart... @

i'm off to london tomorrow at 12.55p.m. and shop a bit around london before off to brunei on 10th june. may this heart will be stronger to carry on...