do you ever wonder?

Salaam everyone,

a very good morning to myself - and everyone else :)

For a split second, after reading random blogs, I asked myself this, "do people only care about what happens in other people's lives?". Because a loved one's blog has visitors that could reach up to 300 readers on a daily basis, but when it comes to commenting, it's as if no one reads the posts, or maybe readers don't know what to say. Out of respect, perhaps readers love reading the posts but feel that they'd rather be silent readers than participating in giving comments.

Wallahu'alam.

(On a totally random albeit related issue, I guess perspectives are different from different people. KM posted an interesting post about blogs - Bagaimana Nak Buat Blog Best? - click click.)

For split second, my heart felt so heavy that I wanted to let go of everything. I wanted to give up doing what we do because I am...tired.

Then this nasheed comes up.

Yang Maha Penyayang - Hijjaz

Lihat bulan dan bintang
Menerangi dunia
Betapa agung kerajaan-Nya
Lihat pula lautan
Sang suria di atasnya
Semua akur pada Yang Esa

Umpama kan sang unggas
Di rimba belantara
Begitulah bandingannya kita
Sungguh kerdilnya insan
Yang diciptakan Tuhan
Ternyatalah Agung Ar -Rahman

Besar niat bahaya
Kita tempuhi jua
Segala perintah-Nya kita laksana
Jauhkan larangan-Nya
Sembunyi atau nyata
Semua untuk faedah kita
Ikhlas kan pada hati
Amal kerna Ilahi
Teguhkan dalam diri kalam Rabbani
Pesanan dari Nabi jadi panduan diri
Hidup dan mati untuk Ilahi

Tiada perkataan layak buat bayangan
Terima kasih pada-Mu Tuhan
Tak terhitung kurniaan
Biara dakwat selautan
Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Penyayang

and somehow it made me cry for even thinking of giving up. For a split second, a moment of weakness, I wanted to let go??

TSK!

My imaan is very very very very weak :(

Ikhlas kan pada hati
Amal kerna Ilahi
Teguhkan dalam diri kalam Rabbani
Pesanan dari Nabi jadi panduan diri
Hidup dan mati untuk Ilahi

Ikhlaskan hati, duhai hati.

My heart keeps on saying, ujian ujian ujian after another and another. Mampukah hati ini untuk bersabar dan bertawakkal kepada Yang Maha Esa...? Insya Allah...

Another loved one once said that, there are two things that are the best (yang terbaik) in our life, one - what has happened to us in the past (be it good or bad - pokoknya yang telah terjadi that make us the person that we are today) and second - apa yang disuruh oleh Islam* (corrected by another loved one - jazakillah G)

So what happens when there is a clash in pendirian between yourself and someone you hold dear? Most part of me say, I would stand on my ground - no matter what - no compromise. It takes a lot of courage, patience and ujian after ujian to get here and now I have to choose. And I know I am that indecisive!

sigh.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mendengar dan Maha Mengetahui apa yang ada di dalam hati hambaMu ini. Ampunilah dosa hambaMu ini...

"Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia memohon kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran" (Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 186)

Maybe this post would cheer me up!! ALHAMDULILLAH!!!! :D :D :D (source: http://faridul.wordpress.com)

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