Learning.

Assalamu'alaikum wbr,

I don't have the inspiration or time to blog about anything concerning my daily life (because I guess enough people are suffice to talk about their life so I better leave that normality bit to the rest). But THIS I got an interest in.

=)

Which is....

LEARNING ARABIC.

"Dan tidak sepatutnya orang-orang mukmin itu semuanya pergi (ke medan perang). Mengapa sebagian dari setiap golongan antara mereka tidak pergi untuk memperdalam pengetahuan agama mereka dan untuk memberi peringatan kepada kaumnya apabila mereka telah kembali agar mereka dapat menjaga dirinya"
(Surah at-Taubah, ayat 122)

I don't have any proper learning style or teacher for that matter. I'm still learning and you might find it odd because I serenade to nasheeds. Arabic nasheeds are my main interest at the moment. This week, I listened with care to Rabbani's Irtihal, trying MY best (read: someone who has no arabic background, be it in qualification or the language itself - the only arabic lessons I had was during Ugama School 20 years or so ago and Alhamdulillah, with that basic knowledge I am brushing up my Tajwid every time the sisters and I have our weekly tilawah) to make up what the arabic pronunciations are and write it down. The meaning of Irtihal, I presume is the same as "Pergi Tak Kembali" and woot woot it's MY style of learning arabic.

Yes. Through Arabic Nasheeds.

One of these days, insya Allah, who knows ada rezeki untuk attend arabic classes to actually learn arabic the PROPER way. I was told it is not going to be 'easy', but hey, I have all the determination to hafalkan Arabic lyrics, so WHY NOT?

My current favourite is the beautiful Elaika by Mahmud Ubay. And you can be sure I am repetitively singing along to the words UNTIL they get stuck in my head. And the best part is? I got the translation to make ME understand it more.

INTERNET'S COOLIES!

I HEART THIS LANGUAGE! And I envy those of you who can actually SPEAK, UNDERSTAND and WRITE arabic with FLUENCY!

I .E.V.N.Y. THEE!!

(TEACH MEEEEEEEEE!!!)

The Lyrics: (In arabic, Malay and English)

ilaika ilahal khalqi arfa`u raghbati
wa in kuntu ya zal manni wal judi mujrima

wa lamma qasa qalbi wa dhaqat mazahibi
ja`altur raja minni li `afwika sullama

fa ma zilta za `afwin `aniz zanbi lam tazal
tajudu wa ta`fu minnatan wa takarruma

ilaika ilahal khalqi arfa`u raghbati
wa in kuntu ya zal manni wal judi mujrima

wa lamma qasa qalbi wa dhaqat mazahibi
ja`altur raja minni li `afwika sullama

fa ma zilta za `afwin `aniz zanbi lam tazal
tajudu wa ta`fu minnatan wa takarruma

alastal lazi ghazzaitani wa hadaitani
wa la zilta mannanan `alaiya wa mun`ima

asa man lahul ihsanu yaghfiru zallati
wa yasturu auzari wa ma qad taqaddama

fa in ta`fu `anni ta`fu `an mutamarridin
dzalumin ghasyumin la yuzayilu ma'thama

wa in tantaqim minni fa lastu bi ayisin
wa lau adkhalu nafsi bi jurmin jahannama

ilaika ilahal khalqi arfa`u raghbati
wa in kuntu ya zal manni wal judi mujrima

wa lamma qasa qalbi wa dhaqat mazahibi
ja`altur raja minni li `afwika sullama

fa ma zilta za `afwin `aniz zanbi lam tazal
tajudu wa ta`fu minnatan wa takarruma

fasihan iza ma kana fi zikri rabbihi
wa fi ma siwahu fil wara kana a`jama

yaqulu habibi anta su'li wa bughyati
kafa bi ka lir rajina su'lan wa maghnama

asunu widadi an yudannisahul hawa
wa ahfazu `ahdal hubbi an yatathallama

fa fi yaqzati syauqun wa fi ghafwati munan
tulahiqu khatwi nasywatan wa tarannuma

fa jurmi `azimun min qadimin wa hadithin
wa `afwuka ya'til `abda a`la wa ajsama

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kupersembahkan kepadaMu tuhan sekelian makhluk harapanku
sekalipun aku seorang yang berdosa wahai yang Maha pemberi dan pemurah


tatkala keras hatiku dan sesak perjalanan hidupku
kujadikan rayuan daripadaku sebagai jalan mengharap keampunanMu


maka bilamana Engkau yang memiliki keampunan menghapuskan dosa yang berterusan ini
kurniaanMu dan keampunanMu adalah rahmat dan kemuliaan


bukankah Engkau yang memberi aku makan dan hidayah kepadaku
dan jangalah Engkau hapuskan kurniaan anugerah dan ni'mat itu kepadaku


semoga orang yang memiliki ihsan mengampunkan kesalahanku
dan menutup dosa2ku dan setiap perkara yang telah lalu


sekiranya Engkau ampunkan aku, ampunkan dari kederhakaan
kezaliman, penganiayaan yang tak akan terhapus di hari berhimpun kesedihan


kezaliman, penganiayaan yang tak akan terhapus di hari berhimpun kesedihan
sekalipun dosa2ku itu memasukkan diriku ke dalam neraka


dia adalah seorang yang fasih ketika menyebut/mengingati tuhannya
dan bilamana dia bersama selain tuhannya di dunia ini dia membisu


dia berkata: Kekasihku, Engkaulah tempatku meminta dan berharap
cukuplah Engkau bagi yang berharap sebagai tempat bergantung dan memohon


kupelihara kasihku yang dicemari nafsu
dan aku jaga janji kasih yang telah tercalar


di saat kujaga, aku rindu, dan di saat kulelap aku berharap
mengiringi langkahku dengan penuh semangat dan berulang2


maka dosaku adalah besar dari dulu dan kini
sedang keampunanmu yang mendatangi hamba adalah lebih agung dan lebih mulia

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I submit my hopes to You, O Lord of all creation,
Though I am, O The Provider, Most Generous, a sinner,


When my heart is hardened, and my life is constricted,
I turn to my submission as the way to Your pardon,


Thus when You, The All-forgiving, wipe clean my continuing sins,
Your gift and Your clemency is a boon and an exaltation to me.


Is it not You who nourishes me, guides me?
Therefore cease not your benevolence and bounty to me,


May those who have obtained excellence forgive me my trespass,
And parade not my wrongdoings and things that have passed.


Should You forgive me, O Lord, absolve me of my treachery,
My injustice, that will be pardoned not on the day when grief is recollected,


My injustice, that will be pardoned not on the day when grief is recollected,
Even as my trespass lands me in the Fire.


He is the one who speaks only in remembrance of his Lord,
And when he is with others in this world, he is silent,


Thus he says, "O my love, You are the One I beseech to, on Whom I place my faith,
Enough is You for those in need for their dependence and their pleas".


Thus I defend my love, though they be tainted with worldly lust,
Thus I protect this promise of devotion, marred though they may be,


In my waking moments, I pine for You, In my slumber, I hope for You,
Walking beside me, full of hope,


Thus though my sins are mountainous, then and now,
But your Forgiveness that reaches me is more great