Assalamu'alaikum everyone,
Masya Allah, it has been a hectic week. When I say 'hectic', it's truly a blessing for feeling as if 24 hours is just ain't enough to do what we do. lol. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Now let me gather all my thoughts to update you with what's been happening, insya Allah.
Alhamdulillah, the sisters and I were able to attend Ustaz Zaharuddin's Kursus Sehari Kesempurnaan Solat last week. I was able to sleepover at her house so that we could wake up together, solat together, and drive the long journey together, I was prohibited from sleeping along the way though. lol. It was indeed an interesting journey and morning. Having to arrive at the supposed venue, only to find that we were the only ones there. Alhamdulillah for tech-y phones that can go online to check the email again to confirm date and venue. Lurus all the details, but why no one at sight? Haiyah. So after making calls, we were told the venue has changed at the very last minute and we were among the few who weren't informed. As we had to drive to the changed venue, along the way, I supposed we kept on reminding each other to not lose it. Kept telling each other that Allah knows best. Kept telling each other that maybe our niat wasn't right. Wallahu'alam. That helped a lot from being all angry and cursing. I guess ada hikmahnya that we went there together. Masya Allah!
Upon arrival, Alhamdulillah, we were among the first ones to arrive. Waa-hey! Despite the rain, it didn't stop us at all.
Alhamdulillah, the one-day intensive course really helped us to memperbaiki our solat, just like what she posted and she posted. Personally, I like the last part the most. Because that was when Ustaz pointed out issues about aurat wanita and it was enough to say that I kept on cringing and asking myself "sempurna kah sudah cara ku menutup aurat?" sigh. Padas yaw! But effective. lol. And and and, when Ustaz showed the clip, the ones who laughed the most actually were the ones who cried the most (and loudest too). An experience I shall always remember to remind me of that particular feeling.
Wahai Tuhan, ku tak layak ke syurgaMu
Namun tak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya Engkau lah Pengampun dosa-dosa besar...
It was truly an eye opening experience. I'd recommend everyone to attend it if there's an opportunity and chance for it to be provided again. It is truly a worthy investment, insya Allah. Having a crappy beginning/ morning (or so we thought), at the end of the day, we realized that Allah is truly the best planner because we thought, "we wouldn't mind going through the same incident again if THIS is what it feels at the end of the day".
:)
Then, came the beginning of the week. We had the senior halaqah to attend cause she was presenting. But had to cut it short cause we were sending her dad off. This day, to me, everything that I planned to do felt as if I was fighting the tide. Have you ever had that feeling where everything just seemed and felt so wrong? And every time you wanna do something, there's always a problem that rises up that disrupt the plan? Well, that was what I felt on this day. I don't know why but I know Allah knows best. But yeah.
The next day, I had a presentation going on. I didn't quite prepare it as if I were about to be examined by it because I spent the whole day out (even though on the contrary it was more like being judged at our presentation skills). I only started writing the notes and points and preparing the slides the night before and practiced on the speech twice before sleeping. I told myself, I'd try my very best, and if this is my rezeki then it'd be mine, insya Allah, so no need to lose sleep or be all stressed out about it". The key word is moderate. I did try my best, Alhamdulillah, and the presentation went smoothly. Alhamdulillah. I couldn't stop smiling right after. Especially knowing the fact that I was doing the presentation but she was the one feeling nervous. lol. She was the first one I called when I finished though. Just to calm her nerves. I wubs yew!!
Then, I slept over at her place again (Awu, addicted). This time because we had halaqah at her place the next day. I gotta say, we were stuffed at the end of the day. Her mother spent all day preparing food for us. We were PAMPERED. The girls loved the food. Hey, why do you think I sleepover a lot?? :P Alhamdulillah for the rezeki :) Jazakillah!
(girls: I forgot to minta maaf during the end of the majlis since I was chairing it and I gave the 7-minutes kulthum, that kalau ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata yang menyinggung perasaan secara tak sengaja, I want to apologize for that...)
Having to say goodbye was hard, parting was hard. Like lovers we are! Love love pun but this girl gotta go home.
Rememer koton kandi hugs and gulali giggles!!
Yesterday, mum's birthday. We had family lunch at Nyonya's. Only my eldest brother and his family couldn't make it because he had to work the night shift. Oh and my younger brother who's currently not here. But it's ho-kay. It was a nice family reunion. Aiman: mum mentioned that she misses you, you haven't called in a loooooooooong time.
Happy Birthday Mum!
Hanya iringan doa yang dapat anakanda hadiahkan untuk kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaan mama di dunia dan di akhirat, Amin... You are truly the best mum!
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Can you say RED!!
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Happy Independence Day, Brunei!!
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Sunday, February 24, 2008
Friday, September 07, 2007
after all is said and done...
Salaam everyone,
Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah alone for making it a smooth and easy day for me today, after going through the last three months doing the biggest part and sorta the most important highlight of my postgraduate life as a student - finishing my dissertation, today, I have submitted my work. And was I relief?
Honestly, not really. Perhaps, because I finished the work quite early but postponed in handing it a few days after printing it, really taking my time to bind it, going through it... and spending a night with it. I know, sad, isn't it? Well, it's MY work. I feel so attached to it somehow. Prolly because it has a lot of personal happenings attached to it as well. I went back to Brunei because of it - gathering data, got to see my family at the same time, had a vacation in KL, came back here finding out I missed all the crazy summer sale, and spending the last four weeks or so transcribing my interviews, going through a lot of articles, writing a lot of points, sleepless nights, spending a lot of time with my laptop, missing a lot of proper meals (hence, 'diet' period), uneven emotions, spending less time outside because I practically stayed in my room most of the time, sacrificing time with friends and putting outside the urges to go shopping... and all that jazz.
And after all that is said and done...
But I got to talk to my mama today. Hehe.. She was the first person I called when I handed in my dissertation. Then, S and I went for lunch, went to send her former housemates off and then off to buy some groceries.
I have a confession to make.
I'm currently addicted to strawberries with chocolate. Before this, I was like "what's all the fuss?", then when I tasted it for the first time last week - I'm hooked!!! I was never a strawberry-person, but for this one, I'm all for it!! The strawberries look so yummy, yes? Well, they taste EVEN BETTER than they look. Can you see I'm drooling??
Teehee.
Such a girl I am.
There's an 'acknowledgment' page in the thesis that we included for thanking those people who matters to us. My deepest thanks go to my parents, but I felt so bad now I didn't include all the 'other' persons who have directly and indirectly encouraged and motivated me in finishing the thesis, without whom, I wouldn't be able to finish it earlier!! But rest assured that my thanks and gratitudes to you guys (you know who you are) are a part of my prayers, insya Allah... ;) (perhaps, when I get the opportunity to do my PhD one day, then insya Allah, I'll remind myself that... ;) )
Alrighty then. Time to catch up on things (and life and sleep and rest and laziness). I need to pack my one year and move out!!!
Allah hafiz everyone.
Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah alone for making it a smooth and easy day for me today, after going through the last three months doing the biggest part and sorta the most important highlight of my postgraduate life as a student - finishing my dissertation, today, I have submitted my work. And was I relief?
Honestly, not really. Perhaps, because I finished the work quite early but postponed in handing it a few days after printing it, really taking my time to bind it, going through it... and spending a night with it. I know, sad, isn't it? Well, it's MY work. I feel so attached to it somehow. Prolly because it has a lot of personal happenings attached to it as well. I went back to Brunei because of it - gathering data, got to see my family at the same time, had a vacation in KL, came back here finding out I missed all the crazy summer sale, and spending the last four weeks or so transcribing my interviews, going through a lot of articles, writing a lot of points, sleepless nights, spending a lot of time with my laptop, missing a lot of proper meals (hence, 'diet' period), uneven emotions, spending less time outside because I practically stayed in my room most of the time, sacrificing time with friends and putting outside the urges to go shopping... and all that jazz.
And after all that is said and done...
But I got to talk to my mama today. Hehe.. She was the first person I called when I handed in my dissertation. Then, S and I went for lunch, went to send her former housemates off and then off to buy some groceries.
I have a confession to make.
I'm currently addicted to strawberries with chocolate. Before this, I was like "what's all the fuss?", then when I tasted it for the first time last week - I'm hooked!!! I was never a strawberry-person, but for this one, I'm all for it!! The strawberries look so yummy, yes? Well, they taste EVEN BETTER than they look. Can you see I'm drooling??
Teehee.
Such a girl I am.
There's an 'acknowledgment' page in the thesis that we included for thanking those people who matters to us. My deepest thanks go to my parents, but I felt so bad now I didn't include all the 'other' persons who have directly and indirectly encouraged and motivated me in finishing the thesis, without whom, I wouldn't be able to finish it earlier!! But rest assured that my thanks and gratitudes to you guys (you know who you are) are a part of my prayers, insya Allah... ;) (perhaps, when I get the opportunity to do my PhD one day, then insya Allah, I'll remind myself that... ;) )
Alrighty then. Time to catch up on things (and life and sleep and rest and laziness). I need to pack my one year and move out!!!
Allah hafiz everyone.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
catatan hati; sekalong doa.
Rindu yang teramat sangat untuk sujud kepadaMu Ya Allah, hanya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui segala isi hatiku...
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Ya Allah,
sekiranya ikatan yang terjalin di antara dirinya dengan diriku ini mengundang kemurkaanMu dan ia sepatutnya tidak berlaku,
maka aku redha jika Engkau tidak menyatukan diriku dengan dirinya...
Engkau tahu bahawa bukan keseronokan hawa nafsu semata-mata yang hambaMu cari...
Juga bukan teman-teman hanya untuk bersuka ria...
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui setiap penjuru hatiku, setiap bisikan naluriku, setiap gerak langkah anggota tubuh badanku, setiap niat perlakuanku...
Engkau Maha Mengetahui betapa terseksanya jiwaku memikirkan perkara ini,
hanya padaMu tempat aku mengadu gelora keresahan hati ini...
Ya Allah,
aku bermohon padaMu, janganlah Engkau lalaikan hatiku daripada sentiasa mengingatiMu,
janganlah Engkau sibukkan diriku dengan perkara-perkara yang melalaikan diriku,
janganlah Engkau hilangkan rasa kyusuk dalam ibadatku kepadaMu Ya Allah,
hanya kepadaMu aku meminta petunjuk dan pertolongan,
aku mencari keredhaanMu Ya Allah,
aku mengharapkan belas kasihMu Ya Allah...
Ya Allah,
sekiranya dia bukan milikku, dan bukan tercipta untuk diriku,
Engkau jauhkanlah dirinya dariku,
hilangkanlah bayangan dirinya dari pandanganku,
hilangkanlah kerinduanku terhadapnya,
tutupkanlah hatiku untuknya...
Ya Allah,
sekiranya dia bukan untukku,
berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk meninggalkan kesan kisah kami berdua,
dan meletakkannya jauh di dasar hati yang tak mungkin akan ku ungkit kembali,
dan hadirkanlah perasaan redha terhadap segala sesuatu yang berlaku atas kehendakMu...
Tuhanku,
kembalikanlah rahmat dan kasih sayangMu kepadaku,
sesungguhnya aku rindu padaMu Ya Allah,
aku rindu untuk sujud kepadaMu Ya Allah,
tabahkanlah hatiku untuk menjalani kehidupan ini sehingga aku bertemu denganMu Ya Allah...
Dalam pada yang sama,
aku bermohon kepadaMu Ya Allah,
kurniakanlah aku seorang teman yang akan menjadi sebahagian daripada hidupku,
Seseorang yang sangat mencintaiMu lebih dari segala sesuatu yang ada,
Seorang teman yang akan meletakkanku di hatinya sebagai 'nombor dua' setelah Engkau,
Seorang teman yang hidupnya bukan untuk dirinya sendiri tetapi untukMu...
Wajah yang tampan dan daya tarikan fizikal bukanlah yang terpenting,
Yang penting bagiku ialah sebuah hati yang sungguh mencintai dan dekat dengan Engkau,
Serta berusaha menjadikan sifat-sifatMu untuk ada pada dirinya,
Dan dia haruslah mengetahui bagi siapa dan untuk apa dia hidup
Sehingga hidupnya tidaklah sia-sia...
Seseorang yang memiliki hati yang baik dan bijak tidak hanya otak yang cerdas,
Seorang teman yang tidak hanya mencintaiku tetapi juga menghormatiku,
Seorang teman yang tidak hanya memujaku tapi juga dapat menasihatiku ketika aku berbuat salah...
Seseorang yang mencintaiku dan tertarik untuk mendekatiku bukan kerana kecantikan yang ada padaku tapi kerana hati dan budi pekertiku,
Seorang teman yang dapat menjadi sahabat terbaikku dalam setiap waktu dan situasi,
Seseorang yang dapat membuatku merasa sebagai seorang wanita muslimah yang solehah di setiap masa dan detik aku berada disisinya...
Ya Allah,
aku tidak meminta dan mengharapkan seseorang yang sempurna,
malah aku hanya meminta seseorang yang tidak sempura untuk diriku yang serba kekurangan ini,
sehingga aku dapat membuatnya sempurna di mataMu,
dan dia pun dapat membuat aku sempurna di mataMu...
Seorang teman yang memerlukan sokonganku sebagai peneguhnya,
Seorang teman yang memerlukan doaku untuk kehidupan sehariannya,
Seseorang yang memerlukan senyumanku untuk meleraikan kesedihan hatinya,
Seseorang yang memerlukan diriku untuk membuat hidupnya menjadi sempurna...
Ya Allah,
aku juga meminta
jadikanlah aku wanita solehah yang dapat membuatnya bangga,
berikan aku hati yang sungguh mencintaiMu sehingga aku dapat mencintainya sekadar yang termampu oleh cintaku...
berikanlah daku sifat yang lembut sehingga kecantikan peribadiku hadir dari cintaku kepadaMu,
berikanlah daku tangan supaya aku selalu mampu berdoa untuknya,
berikanlah daku penglihatan supaya aku dapat melihat banyak hal yang baik dalam dirinya,
berikanlah aku lisan yang penuh dengan lafaz kata-kata yang bijaksana yang mampu untuk memberinya semangat serta menyokongnya di setiap saat dia memerlukanku,
dan supaya aku mampu tersenyum untuk dirinya di setiap pagi
Ya Allah,
hadirkanlah restu dari kedua belah pihak ibubapa kami,
dalam memberkati perhubungan kami berdua,
semoga ia mendapat keberkatan dari mereka,
dan mengundang kebahagiaan dalam kehidupan kami dan keluarga...
Dan bilamana akhirnya kami akan bertemu nanti,
aku berharap kami berdua akan dapat mengatakan:
"betapa Maha Besarnya Engkau Ya Allah yang telah memberikan kepadaku pasangan yang dapat membuat hidupku menjadi sempurna"
Aku mengetahui bahawa Engkau ingin kami bertemu pada waktu dan ketika yang tepat,
dan aku percaya bahawasanya Engkau mampu membuat segala sesuatu itu indah pada waktu yang telah Engkau tetapkan,
Sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui akan sesuatu...
Kurniakanlah kebahagiaan dan keredhaanMu dalam kami menjalani kehidupan di dalam limpah rahmatMu Ya Allah...
Ameen Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin...
.... jangan berhenti berdoa ;)
Salaam.
sekiranya ikatan yang terjalin di antara dirinya dengan diriku ini mengundang kemurkaanMu dan ia sepatutnya tidak berlaku,
maka aku redha jika Engkau tidak menyatukan diriku dengan dirinya...
Engkau tahu bahawa bukan keseronokan hawa nafsu semata-mata yang hambaMu cari...
Juga bukan teman-teman hanya untuk bersuka ria...
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui setiap penjuru hatiku, setiap bisikan naluriku, setiap gerak langkah anggota tubuh badanku, setiap niat perlakuanku...
Engkau Maha Mengetahui betapa terseksanya jiwaku memikirkan perkara ini,
hanya padaMu tempat aku mengadu gelora keresahan hati ini...
Ya Allah,
aku bermohon padaMu, janganlah Engkau lalaikan hatiku daripada sentiasa mengingatiMu,
janganlah Engkau sibukkan diriku dengan perkara-perkara yang melalaikan diriku,
janganlah Engkau hilangkan rasa kyusuk dalam ibadatku kepadaMu Ya Allah,
hanya kepadaMu aku meminta petunjuk dan pertolongan,
aku mencari keredhaanMu Ya Allah,
aku mengharapkan belas kasihMu Ya Allah...
Ya Allah,
sekiranya dia bukan milikku, dan bukan tercipta untuk diriku,
Engkau jauhkanlah dirinya dariku,
hilangkanlah bayangan dirinya dari pandanganku,
hilangkanlah kerinduanku terhadapnya,
tutupkanlah hatiku untuknya...
Ya Allah,
sekiranya dia bukan untukku,
berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk meninggalkan kesan kisah kami berdua,
dan meletakkannya jauh di dasar hati yang tak mungkin akan ku ungkit kembali,
dan hadirkanlah perasaan redha terhadap segala sesuatu yang berlaku atas kehendakMu...
Tuhanku,
kembalikanlah rahmat dan kasih sayangMu kepadaku,
sesungguhnya aku rindu padaMu Ya Allah,
aku rindu untuk sujud kepadaMu Ya Allah,
tabahkanlah hatiku untuk menjalani kehidupan ini sehingga aku bertemu denganMu Ya Allah...
Dalam pada yang sama,
aku bermohon kepadaMu Ya Allah,
kurniakanlah aku seorang teman yang akan menjadi sebahagian daripada hidupku,
Seseorang yang sangat mencintaiMu lebih dari segala sesuatu yang ada,
Seorang teman yang akan meletakkanku di hatinya sebagai 'nombor dua' setelah Engkau,
Seorang teman yang hidupnya bukan untuk dirinya sendiri tetapi untukMu...
Wajah yang tampan dan daya tarikan fizikal bukanlah yang terpenting,
Yang penting bagiku ialah sebuah hati yang sungguh mencintai dan dekat dengan Engkau,
Serta berusaha menjadikan sifat-sifatMu untuk ada pada dirinya,
Dan dia haruslah mengetahui bagi siapa dan untuk apa dia hidup
Sehingga hidupnya tidaklah sia-sia...
Seseorang yang memiliki hati yang baik dan bijak tidak hanya otak yang cerdas,
Seorang teman yang tidak hanya mencintaiku tetapi juga menghormatiku,
Seorang teman yang tidak hanya memujaku tapi juga dapat menasihatiku ketika aku berbuat salah...
Seseorang yang mencintaiku dan tertarik untuk mendekatiku bukan kerana kecantikan yang ada padaku tapi kerana hati dan budi pekertiku,
Seorang teman yang dapat menjadi sahabat terbaikku dalam setiap waktu dan situasi,
Seseorang yang dapat membuatku merasa sebagai seorang wanita muslimah yang solehah di setiap masa dan detik aku berada disisinya...
Ya Allah,
aku tidak meminta dan mengharapkan seseorang yang sempurna,
malah aku hanya meminta seseorang yang tidak sempura untuk diriku yang serba kekurangan ini,
sehingga aku dapat membuatnya sempurna di mataMu,
dan dia pun dapat membuat aku sempurna di mataMu...
Seorang teman yang memerlukan sokonganku sebagai peneguhnya,
Seorang teman yang memerlukan doaku untuk kehidupan sehariannya,
Seseorang yang memerlukan senyumanku untuk meleraikan kesedihan hatinya,
Seseorang yang memerlukan diriku untuk membuat hidupnya menjadi sempurna...
Ya Allah,
aku juga meminta
jadikanlah aku wanita solehah yang dapat membuatnya bangga,
berikan aku hati yang sungguh mencintaiMu sehingga aku dapat mencintainya sekadar yang termampu oleh cintaku...
berikanlah daku sifat yang lembut sehingga kecantikan peribadiku hadir dari cintaku kepadaMu,
berikanlah daku tangan supaya aku selalu mampu berdoa untuknya,
berikanlah daku penglihatan supaya aku dapat melihat banyak hal yang baik dalam dirinya,
berikanlah aku lisan yang penuh dengan lafaz kata-kata yang bijaksana yang mampu untuk memberinya semangat serta menyokongnya di setiap saat dia memerlukanku,
dan supaya aku mampu tersenyum untuk dirinya di setiap pagi
Ya Allah,
hadirkanlah restu dari kedua belah pihak ibubapa kami,
dalam memberkati perhubungan kami berdua,
semoga ia mendapat keberkatan dari mereka,
dan mengundang kebahagiaan dalam kehidupan kami dan keluarga...
Dan bilamana akhirnya kami akan bertemu nanti,
aku berharap kami berdua akan dapat mengatakan:
"betapa Maha Besarnya Engkau Ya Allah yang telah memberikan kepadaku pasangan yang dapat membuat hidupku menjadi sempurna"
Aku mengetahui bahawa Engkau ingin kami bertemu pada waktu dan ketika yang tepat,
dan aku percaya bahawasanya Engkau mampu membuat segala sesuatu itu indah pada waktu yang telah Engkau tetapkan,
Sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui akan sesuatu...
Kurniakanlah kebahagiaan dan keredhaanMu dalam kami menjalani kehidupan di dalam limpah rahmatMu Ya Allah...
Ameen Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin...
.... jangan berhenti berdoa ;)
Salaam.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
learning to say .no.
Salaam,
the truth of the matter is, I'm decoding my interview sessions and man I'm tired. I knew decoding can be so much *fun* so that was why I opted to conduct interview sessions for my thesis' data collection method when I was in Shell. Brilliant choice, neez.
But hey, at least I got to be in a familiar surroundings, no? Always, always appreciate the good things in life.
Speaking of which, I had the tendency to cook buttermilk chicken today. Didn't know why, I guess I was just bored, and hungry. lol
And I got a call from an O2 customer service operator. Now this is interesting, since my contract is ending soon, they do this sort of thing, by offering you a more unbelievably COOL price plan, at a GREAT CHEAPER price, with a brand new set of VERY LATEST handset. Sigh. And for a second there, I was all "yay yay, send me it send me it" when he explained the price plan, the handset which I would be getting the very next day. Get this, I can upgrade my contract to own a N95 free of charge, with 800 free minutes and 500 free text messages (which usually IF I were to want that phone on a new contract, I would have to pay about GBP120 for me to be eligible to get the phone and pay about GBP35 monthly with 600 free minutes and 500 free text messages - pick up your jaw from the floor) and just pay the current rate I'm paying at the moment - GBP35. NOW HOW COOL IS THAT? I was all "yes yes yes yes yes", but the catch was... I gotta extend my contract with O2 for another 24 months. Now, I am a devoted O2 customer since I came here and I would love to extend it - but the problem is, I ain't staying here for long. Sigh. So with all my might, I closed my eyes and said, "can I say no?" to the great offer!!!
N95!!!
So, what did I do to divert my sighing? Eat. And remind myself that there'll be other cooler phones, and when I can afford to buy a new handset, insya Allah, ada rezeki I can do that. (Even though, on the contrary, I love my N73 and I think it's suffice to make calls and send texts at the moment, so why need new toy?)
But still - N95!!! A seriously is interested in this phone. Would've made him a happy guy if he can own it. lol
Oh well. it's said and done now. No point stressing about it.
Besides, I have more decoding to do.
On a completely differentand irrelevant note;
heart, broken. still.
:'(
can i be numb?
the truth of the matter is, I'm decoding my interview sessions and man I'm tired. I knew decoding can be so much *fun* so that was why I opted to conduct interview sessions for my thesis' data collection method when I was in Shell. Brilliant choice, neez.
But hey, at least I got to be in a familiar surroundings, no? Always, always appreciate the good things in life.
Speaking of which, I had the tendency to cook buttermilk chicken today. Didn't know why, I guess I was just bored, and hungry. lol
And I got a call from an O2 customer service operator. Now this is interesting, since my contract is ending soon, they do this sort of thing, by offering you a more unbelievably COOL price plan, at a GREAT CHEAPER price, with a brand new set of VERY LATEST handset. Sigh. And for a second there, I was all "yay yay, send me it send me it" when he explained the price plan, the handset which I would be getting the very next day. Get this, I can upgrade my contract to own a N95 free of charge, with 800 free minutes and 500 free text messages (which usually IF I were to want that phone on a new contract, I would have to pay about GBP120 for me to be eligible to get the phone and pay about GBP35 monthly with 600 free minutes and 500 free text messages - pick up your jaw from the floor) and just pay the current rate I'm paying at the moment - GBP35. NOW HOW COOL IS THAT? I was all "yes yes yes yes yes", but the catch was... I gotta extend my contract with O2 for another 24 months. Now, I am a devoted O2 customer since I came here and I would love to extend it - but the problem is, I ain't staying here for long. Sigh. So with all my might, I closed my eyes and said, "can I say no?" to the great offer!!!
N95!!!
So, what did I do to divert my sighing? Eat. And remind myself that there'll be other cooler phones, and when I can afford to buy a new handset, insya Allah, ada rezeki I can do that. (Even though, on the contrary, I love my N73 and I think it's suffice to make calls and send texts at the moment, so why need new toy?)
But still - N95!!! A seriously is interested in this phone. Would've made him a happy guy if he can own it. lol
Oh well. it's said and done now. No point stressing about it.
Besides, I have more decoding to do.
On a completely different
heart, broken. still.
:'(
can i be numb?
Friday, August 03, 2007
daily dose.
Salaam everyone.
I finally got my daily dose rounds of blog-reading, which I didn't get to do much while I was in Brunei. It's *SO* good to be back (and how many times do I have to mention that?)
Recently, my youngest brother and I share the same taste of songs... in fact most of the songs I listen to now, I got it from him. He's such a fatty, I tell you. What more, he's taller than I am, and he's only 15!
Oh, I went out and have lunch with S yesterday. It's so good to be back. First, went to HSBC to sort out my debitcard. Met B along the way and he said that I gained weight! :0 Expected, I tell you. Although it's shocking to hear it from someone, he only replied saying, "hey, I'm a good friend, I tell you the truth" lol. Right! So from now on and for the next coupla weeks, neez is walking everywhere. City centre - walking. Uni - walking. Library - walking. Gotta burn off these butter chicken fats!! lol
Went to Spicemania for lunch and how many rounds did I eat? THREE!! Right, so much for burning fats, neez! lol. (Lets keep a happy post now, shall we?). S mentioned about the fact that it's still sale everywhere, so tempted to go, I noted to go 'window' shopping. Huh. Never, ever, ever say yes to my request of window shopping. I always always always end up buying something. Typical neez! lol
But it felt good. Weirdly enough, I only bought a top from Jane Norman and it only cost 9 quids! And I bought something which I personally think kinda special - of course I'm not gonna mention it here. It's too personal to be shared. (right, isn't this an invitation to read all about my life?) tsk. neez. tsk.
Jabirness much.
Catching up sessions with G and S felt so good. I never knew I'd miss Leeds this much. It's so good to be back! All the hassles and heartaches, I left them all in Brunei. Like N said, being away from home is like getting away from reality. And why I'm excited to leave MY reality and be here instead? Because, so much so, MY reality seems inevitable for me to put aside. Too many people and too many hearts are involved now for me to just drop everything, be insensitive and selfish and just tell everyone to bugger off. Sigh. If I were to be given an option, I'd opt for starting new and fresh somewhere where I know no one else but myself and of course - FPH. What's FPH, neez? FPH stands for Future Potential Husband. (Now why am I getting off the topic here?). On the other hand, I *do* have options, it's the question of whether I am strong enough to make the choices and stick with it and live with it. Sigh.
Jabirness much.
So many things in life. Choices. Ketentuan. Jodoh pertemuan. Feelings. I feel lost sometimes. But can you really help who you fall in love with? Sigh. (*whispers* - yes you can! because you hold the key to your heart, no one else)
Pfft. Easier said than done this!!
I finally got my daily dose rounds of blog-reading, which I didn't get to do much while I was in Brunei. It's *SO* good to be back (and how many times do I have to mention that?)
Recently, my youngest brother and I share the same taste of songs... in fact most of the songs I listen to now, I got it from him. He's such a fatty, I tell you. What more, he's taller than I am, and he's only 15!
Oh, I went out and have lunch with S yesterday. It's so good to be back. First, went to HSBC to sort out my debitcard. Met B along the way and he said that I gained weight! :0 Expected, I tell you. Although it's shocking to hear it from someone, he only replied saying, "hey, I'm a good friend, I tell you the truth" lol. Right! So from now on and for the next coupla weeks, neez is walking everywhere. City centre - walking. Uni - walking. Library - walking. Gotta burn off these butter chicken fats!! lol
Went to Spicemania for lunch and how many rounds did I eat? THREE!! Right, so much for burning fats, neez! lol. (Lets keep a happy post now, shall we?). S mentioned about the fact that it's still sale everywhere, so tempted to go, I noted to go 'window' shopping. Huh. Never, ever, ever say yes to my request of window shopping. I always always always end up buying something. Typical neez! lol
But it felt good. Weirdly enough, I only bought a top from Jane Norman and it only cost 9 quids! And I bought something which I personally think kinda special - of course I'm not gonna mention it here. It's too personal to be shared. (right, isn't this an invitation to read all about my life?) tsk. neez. tsk.
Jabirness much.
Catching up sessions with G and S felt so good. I never knew I'd miss Leeds this much. It's so good to be back! All the hassles and heartaches, I left them all in Brunei. Like N said, being away from home is like getting away from reality. And why I'm excited to leave MY reality and be here instead? Because, so much so, MY reality seems inevitable for me to put aside. Too many people and too many hearts are involved now for me to just drop everything, be insensitive and selfish and just tell everyone to bugger off. Sigh. If I were to be given an option, I'd opt for starting new and fresh somewhere where I know no one else but myself and of course - FPH. What's FPH, neez? FPH stands for Future Potential Husband. (Now why am I getting off the topic here?). On the other hand, I *do* have options, it's the question of whether I am strong enough to make the choices and stick with it and live with it. Sigh.
Jabirness much.
So many things in life. Choices. Ketentuan. Jodoh pertemuan. Feelings. I feel lost sometimes. But can you really help who you fall in love with? Sigh. (*whispers* - yes you can! because you hold the key to your heart, no one else)
Pfft. Easier said than done this!!
Thursday, August 02, 2007
worth being away for...
Salaam everyone.
With a box full of ardams, a few boxes of munchies (comprised of raya biscuits) and a few tops, I left Brunei with a very happy heart. Not that I like getting away, as the thought of 24 hours of travel (17 hours of flight and 6 hours of coach travel back to Leeds - do the maths) is an agony, but because I realized that being away will mean that I get to be on my own again. I will have back my me-time.
You must get offended by that remark. But I didn't mean it to sound so insensitive. You see, the moment I entered my room yesterday, I realized how much I love my life here. I get to live by my rules, and no one else's. Not saying that it's bad... in fact, I absolutely adored my 5 weeks vacation in Brunei, because not only I got to see my family and only *cough* some *cough* of my friends, but also because I gained weight by the amount of food I consumed since I got back, but also because time flew so fast that I forgot to breathe and take a moment for myself, and just myself.
Now I realized, when I'm in Brunei, I don't belong to me. I belong to my parents and my friends. My parents, especially. Not that I don't enjoy it, but having to be apart from them most months of a year, kinda have to get myself used to the idea of living under their roof. You know what I mean, right?
Anyways, now I'm back. I have about 4 weeks to finish my thesis. But work will not start until end of the week, because I need to catch up with my food stock, stories and yada yada yada...
Thanks for those who made my vacation in Brunei worthwhile. My sincere apologies if I were unable to attend any meet-ups, hang-outs due to the constraint of my time since I spent two weeks working, a week in KL and another week with the family and I'm back here again.
What I love about being back? The faster broadband connection, of course. ;)
Now you'll always see me online on messenger. Perhaps updating the blogs and participating actively (insya Allah) in the newly formed halaqah google group.
Here're some pictures prior to my departure.
[pictures have been removed]
ps. I miss everyone now. Especially mum and leya lating! And Nyonya's Butter Chicken!! And DIMSUM! And Butter Chicken some more!!
With a box full of ardams, a few boxes of munchies (comprised of raya biscuits) and a few tops, I left Brunei with a very happy heart. Not that I like getting away, as the thought of 24 hours of travel (17 hours of flight and 6 hours of coach travel back to Leeds - do the maths) is an agony, but because I realized that being away will mean that I get to be on my own again. I will have back my me-time.
You must get offended by that remark. But I didn't mean it to sound so insensitive. You see, the moment I entered my room yesterday, I realized how much I love my life here. I get to live by my rules, and no one else's. Not saying that it's bad... in fact, I absolutely adored my 5 weeks vacation in Brunei, because not only I got to see my family and only *cough* some *cough* of my friends, but also because I gained weight by the amount of food I consumed since I got back, but also because time flew so fast that I forgot to breathe and take a moment for myself, and just myself.
Now I realized, when I'm in Brunei, I don't belong to me. I belong to my parents and my friends. My parents, especially. Not that I don't enjoy it, but having to be apart from them most months of a year, kinda have to get myself used to the idea of living under their roof. You know what I mean, right?
Anyways, now I'm back. I have about 4 weeks to finish my thesis. But work will not start until end of the week, because I need to catch up with my food stock, stories and yada yada yada...
Thanks for those who made my vacation in Brunei worthwhile. My sincere apologies if I were unable to attend any meet-ups, hang-outs due to the constraint of my time since I spent two weeks working, a week in KL and another week with the family and I'm back here again.
What I love about being back? The faster broadband connection, of course. ;)
Now you'll always see me online on messenger. Perhaps updating the blogs and participating actively (insya Allah) in the newly formed halaqah google group.
Here're some pictures prior to my departure.
[pictures have been removed]
ps. I miss everyone now. Especially mum and leya lating! And Nyonya's Butter Chicken!! And DIMSUM! And Butter Chicken some more!!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
ngalih ku ngalih...
In about 48 hours (or less), I'll be flying back to UK. Honestly, I'm dreading the travel time, anyone wanna swap lives? *teehee*
Am at De'Fountain at the moment, with A&A, free wireless, although on the contrary, I got wireless connection at home but somehow... ada problem, hence, lack of updates or yang sewaktu dengannya.
Folks, my final 6 weeks of life as a student will be hectic, but I am missing Leeds and the people!! Brunei has been great, my apologies if I didn't get the chance to meet all of you while I was here, but insya Allah, ada jodoh, we will meet again...
have faith.
My coming back this time has been both thrilling and exciting and tiring but I loved every single moment!!
Until then, the next time I post, I might be in Leeds already. So, pray for my safe journey back to Leeds... and have a great month everyone.
Lots of loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (seriously!!),
n
Am at De'Fountain at the moment, with A&A, free wireless, although on the contrary, I got wireless connection at home but somehow... ada problem, hence, lack of updates or yang sewaktu dengannya.
Folks, my final 6 weeks of life as a student will be hectic, but I am missing Leeds and the people!! Brunei has been great, my apologies if I didn't get the chance to meet all of you while I was here, but insya Allah, ada jodoh, we will meet again...
have faith.
My coming back this time has been both thrilling and exciting and tiring but I loved every single moment!!
Until then, the next time I post, I might be in Leeds already. So, pray for my safe journey back to Leeds... and have a great month everyone.
Lots of loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (seriously!!),
n
Thursday, July 26, 2007
there and back again...
Hellew everyone.
I just got back from KL yesterday. Was there for a whole week and it has been magnificent.
I would love to blog about it now, but it seems like time is not on my side. I only have a few days left before I fly back to UK.
Time seems to fly so fast, doesn't it? And I've got the whole weekend booked with activities.
I should stop blogging for a while. Life back in UK is gonna be hectic!
(besides, nobody says it was easy)
Toodles~
I just got back from KL yesterday. Was there for a whole week and it has been magnificent.
I would love to blog about it now, but it seems like time is not on my side. I only have a few days left before I fly back to UK.
Time seems to fly so fast, doesn't it? And I've got the whole weekend booked with activities.
I should stop blogging for a while. Life back in UK is gonna be hectic!
(besides, nobody says it was easy)
Toodles~
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
here comes the summer sun~
Salaam everyone.
Sorry for the LACK OF UPDATES!
Thanks for leaving 'comments'. *waves at mamat gua cina sasat perasan cina* lol good to see you coming out once in a blue moon~
I have reasons why I have been OCCUPIED these last few days and hence the lack of updates...
FIRST...
I love the number '17' that I requested to have it designed on my favourite drink - hot chocolate... (although it doesn't look '17' to me...)
SECONDLY,
Then I get to see my cute little niece - Aleeya
THIRDLY,
Then, butter chicken is SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD AND NYAMAN AND CHEAP!
....and FINALLY,
I get to take picture with Aiman who's currently in BRUNEI.
... get the hint?
I'M BACK PEOPLE!!!!
But for a month only as I need to do my research data collection for my Masters thesis for two weeks at BSP. And I'm currently using their wireless function as we speak. Started yesterday and it was a great first day - hey, it's only gonna be for two weeks so might as well enjoy it, no?
Sorry for the surprise. But I'll tell more in my next post. For now, I'm quite occupied with my research (yatah karang! :P) and there's no internet connection at home.
If you do see me around, please tagur-tagur, I can be quite 'blind' and 'in my own world' when I walk alone. lol. Bah, work's calling.
ps: thanks to Ness for being there at the airport. wubs you muchos!!!!
xoxo
Sorry for the LACK OF UPDATES!
Thanks for leaving 'comments'. *waves at mamat gua cina sasat perasan cina* lol good to see you coming out once in a blue moon~
I have reasons why I have been OCCUPIED these last few days and hence the lack of updates...
FIRST...
I love the number '17' that I requested to have it designed on my favourite drink - hot chocolate... (although it doesn't look '17' to me...)
SECONDLY,
Then I get to see my cute little niece - Aleeya
THIRDLY,
Then, butter chicken is SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD AND NYAMAN AND CHEAP!
....and FINALLY,
I get to take picture with Aiman who's currently in BRUNEI.
... get the hint?
I'M BACK PEOPLE!!!!
But for a month only as I need to do my research data collection for my Masters thesis for two weeks at BSP. And I'm currently using their wireless function as we speak. Started yesterday and it was a great first day - hey, it's only gonna be for two weeks so might as well enjoy it, no?
Sorry for the surprise. But I'll tell more in my next post. For now, I'm quite occupied with my research (yatah karang! :P) and there's no internet connection at home.
If you do see me around, please tagur-tagur, I can be quite 'blind' and 'in my own world' when I walk alone. lol. Bah, work's calling.
ps: thanks to Ness for being there at the airport. wubs you muchos!!!!
xoxo
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Isn't it funny.
Salaam everyone.
I have come across this post and it's quite interesting.
It's titled Buat Bakal Suamiku, credits go to the writer, Zahranuur.
=================================================================
Let me tell you one secret.
Truthfully, I am scared. Emotionally, I am SCARED.
Lately, I have been somewhat compromising with myself. And I blame it none other than myself and my weak iman. I would love to rant and/or let it all out here, but I decided not to, I told myself, I have a better listener (not that you guys are any less than better ;)), so it's either I keep it to myself, or I tell Him.
All my happiness, all my sorrows, all my smiles, all my sadness, all my tears, all my secrets, I tell Him.
So many things I want to share with you. One of the things that I have been avoiding to talk about is - love and relationship.
Because it might be considered as - unmuslimah - for me to talk about it since quite more than a few times I have mentioned about the beauty of muslimah, lower gaze, haya'... then you might wonder, how am I going to find a suitable husband?
Allah knows, my readers. You don't know what I've gone through, what I am going through. But Allah knows :D
It seems a lot more complicated to be put into words - for fear that you might get all judgmental - but at the end of the day, I know my intentions are right, insya Allah, and before I try to correct you, I am still trying to correct myself. Yes, I am not perfect. Yes, sometimes, I do feel lonely. Yes, I am still single. But I am not alone. Nor I am lonely. In fact, the very idea of a relationship scares the wits out of me. Perhaps because I have been out of it in a long time that I keep on telling myself that the next time I am in a relationship, let the guy be the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, the one who can guide me through living happily in this world and the next, insya Allah. To find that kind of guy, for me, is a challenge. Yes, there are a lot of potential out there, masya Allah. When I didn't ask for it, it seems like they're there queuing up - without being invited. Choices, choices, choices. But to know someone is to know how they are - islamically. It is a difficult task for me, but after reading this post, then I realize that it's quite simple. Yes, I do usaha as well, but more importantly, I leave it to Allah's hands.
It states that "... Tetapi anda perlu ingat, bukan semua perempuan mempunyai hati yang lembut dan mudah di bentuk. Keimanan dan kekuatan sikap merealisasikan Islam perlu ada pada lelaki. Perempuan yang beriman mesti mencari lelaki yang lebih kuat imannya daripadanya kerana lelakilah yang menjadi ketua keluarga…"
Lelaki lah yang menjadi ketua keluarga. How important that is in memilih calon suami? For me, that's quite important. Especially, when I have the intention to lead an Islamic life for my family one day, insya Allah. And for that, I supplicate to Allah to temukan jodoh with someone who can bimbing myself and our family in Islamic upbringing, because he will be my husband, my better half, my imam, insya Allah.
So, how now? How to find such worthy guys? They are around, ladies. Maybe a bit shy to approach knowing that a muslimah is usually 'out-of-reach'. For those who are daring and willing to take risks, can just go ahead and ask the girl or guy out. There's no harm in that. I've read books that advice girls or women to make the first move, instead of waiting for the guy to make the move - yes it might sound 'bari malu' and can di perumpanakan seperti 'perigi mencari telaga' (or is it the other way around? lol - right neez, kan guna peribahasa pun nda tau). In cases where you're a bit 'shy' to make the first move, this is where 'orang tengah' main peranan. 'Orang tengah' in this sense, can be someone we personally know, or a friend of that person we are interested to get to know.
Easy said than done, you know!
Ey-elahhhh... Let me tell you a little story.
Disclaimer: Based on true story this. And the person concerned has given approval for her story to be published.
Girl likes boy. But girl heard from sources that boy is apparently 'not available'. Then, girl keeps the friendship strictly friends for fear of being called names - 'perampas', 'gatal', 'nda sadar diri', etc. But at the same time, boy seems interested. Boy gives hints. Boy flirts. Girl plays along. But girl also gets confused. How meh? He's not available but why boy is saying things that are obviously flirtatious. Dangerous territory this. (Please note: flirtatious in a sense that is not melampaui batas, as boy and girl communicates most of the time via internet. Boy and girl still maintain the haya' or modesty between them in their conversation, wallahu'alam, but a lot of hinting is playing around. Hence, boy and girl never actually go out, nor dating, unless it is either attending functions where boy and girl are both involved in and when boy and girl meet, they keep it strictly casual). Then, one day, boy and girl meet up (accompanied by friends lah - not just the two of them), then boy and girl hit it off. This is also the day where boy and girl exchange phone numbers (finally) after knowing and communicating with each other for the past few months. They clicked. They enjoy each other's company. Girl likes boy even more. And boy seems to give positive feedback as well. Then friend of girl jokingly asked about the boy's beau. SHOCKER!
Boy says "I am single. I am not attached. I don't have a girlfriend". Boy looks at girl and repeats "I am still SINGLE". Girl blushes. All these times, it was false assumptions (which is why it's quite dangerous to assume things without proof - especially when it comes from a third party not from the person concerned). Anyways, after knowing that boy is single, girl gets a bit excited on what to do next. Girl likes boy. And seems like boy likes girl too. Plus when girl calls boy, a friend of boy hints "... boy is driving at the moment, any messages? want to say girl misses boy har?", girl, of course maintain ayu saying, "no.. just tell boy to call girl when boy is not so busy". It shows that boy tells friend about boy's interest on girl. And girl also tells close friends about girl's interest on boy. So, one day, girl and boy decides to watch movie with a bunch of friends. Then what?
Then, girl hints. Boy hints also. No direct talk. Just hints. Gaaahhhh~
Annoying right? Talk about stubborn and ego! heehee
Then, come third party - orang tengah - OT. OT says "bah give me boy's number, I text on girl's behalf". Girl gives in, thinking OT is joking. OT isn't.
So, OT texts guy stating, "(intro)... asking on behalf of girl because girl's shy and girl's the reserved one and I break rules... so what say lunch together... yes, no?"
The boy replies, "ehem.... I think I will text and ask her personally. Tell her also, don't be shy ;)"
JENG JENG JENG.
Then, boy texts girl. Boy asks girl to go out lunch. An official date :)
Moral of the story: Don't always take wholeheartedly any assumptions/stories without knowing/finding the truth from the person/s concerned. A little effort doesn't hurt. A little help from orang tengah is sometimes welcomed. But more importantly, set our intentions right, berdoa kepada Allah to permudahkan urusan, insya Allah..
Although, some might perceive it as "membari malu" or "never in my life will I ask a guy out". Babe, belum cuba belum tau... kalau atu tau malu, mendedah aurat depan non-muhrim, inda malu dengan Allah?(including me especially!! sigh). Don't let our ego keeps us away from a chance of happiness. As long as ia inda melampaui batas, dating pun dating jua, but when two people non-muhrims are together, best believe the third party is there to shake your iman. Nauzubillah... set your boundaries, get to know the guy, know hati budi nya, know how he brings himself, because if he fits the criteria of 'the one', then berdoa kepada Allah supaya dipertemukan jodoh dan diberi rahmat dalam perkenalan.
This is a reminder to myself, first and foremost, as I take the matter of marriage quite seriously nowadays. Love can be planted after marriage, but for those who are lucky enough to have found love before marriage, cherish it, minta keberkatan dari Allah supaya dijauhkan membuat kemungkaran dan semoga jodoh diperkuatkan, insya Allah...
Next up. Bab Kahwin. Excited this!!
Because, in a few hours, Khairul Aini will no longer be his fiance, but she will be his wife, his zaujah, his better half. Alhamdulillah. May Allah bless this union and strengthen both your and husband's iman, tingkatkan ketaqwaan dan kesabaran dalam menempuh hidup berumahtangga. I love you, sis. Words cannot express how I truly feel, cukuptah I include you in my duaa, insya Allah ;)
Ness, smitten much? ;) Speak soon, sweetiebums.
I have come across this post and it's quite interesting.
It's titled Buat Bakal Suamiku, credits go to the writer, Zahranuur.
=================================================================
Let me tell you one secret.
Truthfully, I am scared. Emotionally, I am SCARED.
Lately, I have been somewhat compromising with myself. And I blame it none other than myself and my weak iman. I would love to rant and/or let it all out here, but I decided not to, I told myself, I have a better listener (not that you guys are any less than better ;)), so it's either I keep it to myself, or I tell Him.
All my happiness, all my sorrows, all my smiles, all my sadness, all my tears, all my secrets, I tell Him.
So many things I want to share with you. One of the things that I have been avoiding to talk about is - love and relationship.
Because it might be considered as - unmuslimah - for me to talk about it since quite more than a few times I have mentioned about the beauty of muslimah, lower gaze, haya'... then you might wonder, how am I going to find a suitable husband?
Allah knows, my readers. You don't know what I've gone through, what I am going through. But Allah knows :D
It seems a lot more complicated to be put into words - for fear that you might get all judgmental - but at the end of the day, I know my intentions are right, insya Allah, and before I try to correct you, I am still trying to correct myself. Yes, I am not perfect. Yes, sometimes, I do feel lonely. Yes, I am still single. But I am not alone. Nor I am lonely. In fact, the very idea of a relationship scares the wits out of me. Perhaps because I have been out of it in a long time that I keep on telling myself that the next time I am in a relationship, let the guy be the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, the one who can guide me through living happily in this world and the next, insya Allah. To find that kind of guy, for me, is a challenge. Yes, there are a lot of potential out there, masya Allah. When I didn't ask for it, it seems like they're there queuing up - without being invited. Choices, choices, choices. But to know someone is to know how they are - islamically. It is a difficult task for me, but after reading this post, then I realize that it's quite simple. Yes, I do usaha as well, but more importantly, I leave it to Allah's hands.
It states that "... Tetapi anda perlu ingat, bukan semua perempuan mempunyai hati yang lembut dan mudah di bentuk. Keimanan dan kekuatan sikap merealisasikan Islam perlu ada pada lelaki. Perempuan yang beriman mesti mencari lelaki yang lebih kuat imannya daripadanya kerana lelakilah yang menjadi ketua keluarga…"
Lelaki lah yang menjadi ketua keluarga. How important that is in memilih calon suami? For me, that's quite important. Especially, when I have the intention to lead an Islamic life for my family one day, insya Allah. And for that, I supplicate to Allah to temukan jodoh with someone who can bimbing myself and our family in Islamic upbringing, because he will be my husband, my better half, my imam, insya Allah.
So, how now? How to find such worthy guys? They are around, ladies. Maybe a bit shy to approach knowing that a muslimah is usually 'out-of-reach'. For those who are daring and willing to take risks, can just go ahead and ask the girl or guy out. There's no harm in that. I've read books that advice girls or women to make the first move, instead of waiting for the guy to make the move - yes it might sound 'bari malu' and can di perumpanakan seperti 'perigi mencari telaga' (or is it the other way around? lol - right neez, kan guna peribahasa pun nda tau). In cases where you're a bit 'shy' to make the first move, this is where 'orang tengah' main peranan. 'Orang tengah' in this sense, can be someone we personally know, or a friend of that person we are interested to get to know.
Easy said than done, you know!
Ey-elahhhh... Let me tell you a little story.
Disclaimer: Based on true story this. And the person concerned has given approval for her story to be published.
Girl likes boy. But girl heard from sources that boy is apparently 'not available'. Then, girl keeps the friendship strictly friends for fear of being called names - 'perampas', 'gatal', 'nda sadar diri', etc. But at the same time, boy seems interested. Boy gives hints. Boy flirts. Girl plays along. But girl also gets confused. How meh? He's not available but why boy is saying things that are obviously flirtatious. Dangerous territory this. (Please note: flirtatious in a sense that is not melampaui batas, as boy and girl communicates most of the time via internet. Boy and girl still maintain the haya' or modesty between them in their conversation, wallahu'alam, but a lot of hinting is playing around. Hence, boy and girl never actually go out, nor dating, unless it is either attending functions where boy and girl are both involved in and when boy and girl meet, they keep it strictly casual). Then, one day, boy and girl meet up (accompanied by friends lah - not just the two of them), then boy and girl hit it off. This is also the day where boy and girl exchange phone numbers (finally) after knowing and communicating with each other for the past few months. They clicked. They enjoy each other's company. Girl likes boy even more. And boy seems to give positive feedback as well. Then friend of girl jokingly asked about the boy's beau. SHOCKER!
Boy says "I am single. I am not attached. I don't have a girlfriend". Boy looks at girl and repeats "I am still SINGLE". Girl blushes. All these times, it was false assumptions (which is why it's quite dangerous to assume things without proof - especially when it comes from a third party not from the person concerned). Anyways, after knowing that boy is single, girl gets a bit excited on what to do next. Girl likes boy. And seems like boy likes girl too. Plus when girl calls boy, a friend of boy hints "... boy is driving at the moment, any messages? want to say girl misses boy har?", girl, of course maintain ayu saying, "no.. just tell boy to call girl when boy is not so busy". It shows that boy tells friend about boy's interest on girl. And girl also tells close friends about girl's interest on boy. So, one day, girl and boy decides to watch movie with a bunch of friends. Then what?
Then, girl hints. Boy hints also. No direct talk. Just hints. Gaaahhhh~
Annoying right? Talk about stubborn and ego! heehee
Then, come third party - orang tengah - OT. OT says "bah give me boy's number, I text on girl's behalf". Girl gives in, thinking OT is joking. OT isn't.
So, OT texts guy stating, "(intro)... asking on behalf of girl because girl's shy and girl's the reserved one and I break rules... so what say lunch together... yes, no?"
The boy replies, "ehem.... I think I will text and ask her personally. Tell her also, don't be shy ;)"
JENG JENG JENG.
Then, boy texts girl. Boy asks girl to go out lunch. An official date :)
Moral of the story: Don't always take wholeheartedly any assumptions/stories without knowing/finding the truth from the person/s concerned. A little effort doesn't hurt. A little help from orang tengah is sometimes welcomed. But more importantly, set our intentions right, berdoa kepada Allah to permudahkan urusan, insya Allah..
Although, some might perceive it as "membari malu" or "never in my life will I ask a guy out". Babe, belum cuba belum tau... kalau atu tau malu, mendedah aurat depan non-muhrim, inda malu dengan Allah?(including me especially!! sigh). Don't let our ego keeps us away from a chance of happiness. As long as ia inda melampaui batas, dating pun dating jua, but when two people non-muhrims are together, best believe the third party is there to shake your iman. Nauzubillah... set your boundaries, get to know the guy, know hati budi nya, know how he brings himself, because if he fits the criteria of 'the one', then berdoa kepada Allah supaya dipertemukan jodoh dan diberi rahmat dalam perkenalan.
This is a reminder to myself, first and foremost, as I take the matter of marriage quite seriously nowadays. Love can be planted after marriage, but for those who are lucky enough to have found love before marriage, cherish it, minta keberkatan dari Allah supaya dijauhkan membuat kemungkaran dan semoga jodoh diperkuatkan, insya Allah...
Next up. Bab Kahwin. Excited this!!
Because, in a few hours, Khairul Aini will no longer be his fiance, but she will be his wife, his zaujah, his better half. Alhamdulillah. May Allah bless this union and strengthen both your and husband's iman, tingkatkan ketaqwaan dan kesabaran dalam menempuh hidup berumahtangga. I love you, sis. Words cannot express how I truly feel, cukuptah I include you in my duaa, insya Allah ;)
Ness, smitten much? ;) Speak soon, sweetiebums.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Syukran.
Salaam my dear readers,
especially to my dear sisters and brothers in Islam (whether you are my frequent daily readers, or you come across this site from any links available on the web, or you are a silent reader who appear every now and then),
May the peace and blessings of Allah the Most High be with you always.
SUBAHANALLAHIL 'AZIM, Maha Suci Allah yang Maha Agung...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today You have made easy a few things that I planned to do,
as I can only do so much planning but You are the Omnipotent,
only to You I rely upon...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today You have opened the hearts of a few to reach me,
directly or indirectly,
as I can only give so much love but You are the Most Compassionate,
only to You I try to love wholeheartedly and it is Your Love I try to win (insya Allah)...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today You have given me another option to think about what's best,
as I can only hope for the best but You know what's best for your servants,
only to You I humbly supplicate and I willingly put my trust in You (insya Allah)...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today You made me realized of all the blessings You have bestowed upon me,
as I can only dream so much but You are the Provider,
only from You and because of Your bountiful blessings that I am where I am now...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today You made me fall in love (again) with the beauty of Your religion,
as I can only love so much but You are the Most High and You are the Praiseworthy,
only to You I belong and only to You I return...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today seems like a much better day than yesterday,
because I am still struggling to intendedly please only You as You are the Most Kind,
for You have the mercy to accept the supplication of your slave...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for today I feel happier, content and at peace,
as I am only human with a lot of faults and shortcomings but You are the All-Peaceful,
indulging myself in istighafars to remember You the All-Knowing,
only to You I am forever thankful and indebted...
Syukran Ya Allah,
for giving the opportunities and chances for my sisters and brothers in Islam,
so that I can supplicate to You directly to give them Your taufiq and hidayah as You are the Most Merciful,
only You can make them fall in love with You and Your religion...
because to know You Ya Allah, is to love You...
Syukran Ya Allah. Alhamdulillah...
ALLĀHUM-MAJ’ALNĀ FID-DĀRAYNI MINAL FĀ ‘IZĪN
Oh Allah, make us all successful in both this world and the hereafter.Ameen Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin...
ps. Can't you tell I'm smiling THIS WIDE? Jazakallah Ness for 'helping out' ;), Alhamdulillah for the existence of google, Alhamdulillah for the beautiful (eventhough hot) weather, Alhamdulillah for wonderful families and friends in Brunei and Leeds (and UK) and Thank You Allah for giving me another day...
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Shopaholics we are.
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Salaam everyone.
I've uploaded pictures on my multiply page, but that's not important :D
Last night, we had another supposedly-last-gathering before most of our juniors are off to Brunei, fieldtrips, and so on. Last gathering (which was supposedly to be the last) was last week before Kak Ros and Moi Ling returned back to Brunei for good. Then, without prior planning, we decided to hang out at Zura's place where she cooked her dishes and Qasmal cooked buttermilk chicken. It was delicious. Raizul and Filala joined us afterwards and we 'tested' Winy's and Gdah's new Sony digital cameras.
Anyways, I just picked one picture because I did the 'menyampah-mau-lagi-kan-bergaya' pose. lol.
Moving on...
Went to Boundary Mills, Colne (pronounce as - Cone [silent 'l']) with Kak Lin, Ida and Gdah and about 4 other family members, to make full use of the summer sale discounts. OooOooH we loveeeee sale!! Ness said I can never have enough shopping!! True kah? Nada lahhh!
On the down side, since we started the journey with an empty stomach and since the journey went through the countryside (beautiful scenery by the way, masya Allah), hence Gdah and I tend to get carsick to the point where we both felt like vomiting. Now, I am not the typical person who gets carsick easily, but this morning, prolly because of the way Kak Lin drives the big machine (merc) and because of the countryside road full of twist and turns, so it was BAD!
BAD to the point that I had headaches all day long. So shopping wasn't that great, although I did manage to get handbags, a top and trousers at bargain price, with a further 10 percent discount! :D
The journey back was the same so I decided to sleep it off. No movie for me tonight. Was supposed to go watch O's13 but due to certain circumstances on my and his part, so we postponed.
Now I'm lying lazily on my comfy bed. And the weather's been great, to the point where I have to open my window when I sleep because it gets hot!!
Headache!!
By the by, Ness and I have a theme song!! Cool this!!!
I miss my family, my friends, my ukhti!
I think I'd stop here la. I'm rambling and I don't like it when I ramble nonsense. So full of nonsense!!
xoxo
Salaam everyone.
I've uploaded pictures on my multiply page, but that's not important :D
Last night, we had another supposedly-last-gathering before most of our juniors are off to Brunei, fieldtrips, and so on. Last gathering (which was supposedly to be the last) was last week before Kak Ros and Moi Ling returned back to Brunei for good. Then, without prior planning, we decided to hang out at Zura's place where she cooked her dishes and Qasmal cooked buttermilk chicken. It was delicious. Raizul and Filala joined us afterwards and we 'tested' Winy's and Gdah's new Sony digital cameras.
Anyways, I just picked one picture because I did the 'menyampah-mau-lagi-kan-bergaya' pose. lol.
Moving on...
Went to Boundary Mills, Colne (pronounce as - Cone [silent 'l']) with Kak Lin, Ida and Gdah and about 4 other family members, to make full use of the summer sale discounts. OooOooH we loveeeee sale!! Ness said I can never have enough shopping!! True kah? Nada lahhh!
On the down side, since we started the journey with an empty stomach and since the journey went through the countryside (beautiful scenery by the way, masya Allah), hence Gdah and I tend to get carsick to the point where we both felt like vomiting. Now, I am not the typical person who gets carsick easily, but this morning, prolly because of the way Kak Lin drives the big machine (merc) and because of the countryside road full of twist and turns, so it was BAD!
BAD to the point that I had headaches all day long. So shopping wasn't that great, although I did manage to get handbags, a top and trousers at bargain price, with a further 10 percent discount! :D
The journey back was the same so I decided to sleep it off. No movie for me tonight. Was supposed to go watch O's13 but due to certain circumstances on my and his part, so we postponed.
Now I'm lying lazily on my comfy bed. And the weather's been great, to the point where I have to open my window when I sleep because it gets hot!!
Headache!!
By the by, Ness and I have a theme song!! Cool this!!!
I miss my family, my friends, my ukhti!
I think I'd stop here la. I'm rambling and I don't like it when I ramble nonsense. So full of nonsense!!
xoxo
Friday, June 08, 2007
Why I love living here (Part I)
Salaam 'Alaykum...
May the peace and blessing of Allah be with you always...
It's almost 11pm, UK time, and all of a sudden I am in the mood to do a bit of my dissertation. Yes, after a week of pending work (telling myself that I still have time), a sudden rush of 'rajin-ness' came over me and out were my notebook, my notes from the last meeting session with my supervisor and a few printed articles I'm starting to re-read for my literature review. Fun, eh? :D
The title's a bit odd, I know. Why I put such title then? I am not intentionally stating the fact that I'm lucky enough to be given a chance to further my studies abroad, neither it is an intention to menunjuk-nunjuk to others that Alhamdulillah, Allah has given me rezeki to continue taking my Masters level of education. No, my readers, insya Allah that is not my intention.
The reason I state the fact that I love living my life here is because...
Note: this is not a religious-related post.
Personally, ever since I started to wear my hijab seriously, I am somewhat addicted to buying more and more headscarves. And not just the ones from TieRack, but especially the ones available online, and the fact that I have successfully bought things online and having them delivered to my home address makes the addiction worse every time. Don't you just love the fact that you don't have to go out to shop (not that I don't prefer that anyways), but it's cool that I can just sit lazily in front of my laptop and browse through the collection of hijabs available and choose my pick and putting them on the 'shopping cart' before off to the paying section where I have to securely insert my card details.
Ness and I were having a personal and deep conversation about our intentions to wear niqab. Yes, shocker. We were having discussions about all the possible reactions that we might get when we start wearing it, positively and negatively. All in all, in the end, we decided that, insya Allah if our intentions are purely and solely for the sake to seek Allah's pleasures, then may Allah make it and the path towards it easy for us one day. Ameen.
After she got disconnected (a few times actually - *pats babygirl with lurrrve* - good girl), I immediately went browsing through online shops. Another reason why I love living here. So many choices!!
And I found through youtube video, a website that sells beautiful hijabs.
http://www.muslimbase.com
Amazing collection, I tell you. And prices are reasonable.
And after about an hour and comparing, browsing and keeping myself busy, how did it go, you ask? *big grins*
I've decided to purchase (pictures are courtesy of the website: http://muslimbase.com):
::Kuwaiti Hijab::
::Iqal Hijab::
They do look a bit different from the normal square hijabs I am comfortable with, but it's not wrong to try something new, innit?
Masya Allah, beautiful collection. So, my sisters, if you wish to browse through the website and have the intention to 'minta kirim' while I am here, by all means, contact me, either through here, or via e-mail and insya Allah, we can discuss it further. (Promo this! :D)
A few other websites that I tend to shop online (and trust) are:
http://www.simplyislam.com
http://www.thehijabshop.com
So, I have something to look forward in the next coupla days, insya Allah ;)
By the by, insya Allah, will be off to Colne this weekend with Kak Lin and Ida for a bit of summer sale shopping (a girl can never have enough shopping during sale season!) *cheeky grin*. And prolly next week, insya Allah, will be off to Norwich to visit T *clapping*.
On a different note, Gdah and her coursemates had a bbq thingy today at Hyde Park. Pictures were gorgeous, and I helped out a bit preparing this and that since she decided to volunteer to be the chef in preparing every dish. And when she left, I was in the mood to clean the kitchen *grins*, anything to distract myself from thinking about dissertation, eh? huhuhuh..
Orite-y then. I supposed I have to tell myself that research and readings on Work-Life Balance is far more interesting than updating the dailies of my life ;) Until next time, be safe everyone. Allah hafiz.
May the peace and blessing of Allah be with you always...
It's almost 11pm, UK time, and all of a sudden I am in the mood to do a bit of my dissertation. Yes, after a week of pending work (telling myself that I still have time), a sudden rush of 'rajin-ness' came over me and out were my notebook, my notes from the last meeting session with my supervisor and a few printed articles I'm starting to re-read for my literature review. Fun, eh? :D
The title's a bit odd, I know. Why I put such title then? I am not intentionally stating the fact that I'm lucky enough to be given a chance to further my studies abroad, neither it is an intention to menunjuk-nunjuk to others that Alhamdulillah, Allah has given me rezeki to continue taking my Masters level of education. No, my readers, insya Allah that is not my intention.
The reason I state the fact that I love living my life here is because...
Note: this is not a religious-related post.
Personally, ever since I started to wear my hijab seriously, I am somewhat addicted to buying more and more headscarves. And not just the ones from TieRack, but especially the ones available online, and the fact that I have successfully bought things online and having them delivered to my home address makes the addiction worse every time. Don't you just love the fact that you don't have to go out to shop (not that I don't prefer that anyways), but it's cool that I can just sit lazily in front of my laptop and browse through the collection of hijabs available and choose my pick and putting them on the 'shopping cart' before off to the paying section where I have to securely insert my card details.
Ness and I were having a personal and deep conversation about our intentions to wear niqab. Yes, shocker. We were having discussions about all the possible reactions that we might get when we start wearing it, positively and negatively. All in all, in the end, we decided that, insya Allah if our intentions are purely and solely for the sake to seek Allah's pleasures, then may Allah make it and the path towards it easy for us one day. Ameen.
After she got disconnected (a few times actually - *pats babygirl with lurrrve* - good girl), I immediately went browsing through online shops. Another reason why I love living here. So many choices!!
And I found through youtube video, a website that sells beautiful hijabs.
http://www.muslimbase.com
Amazing collection, I tell you. And prices are reasonable.
And after about an hour and comparing, browsing and keeping myself busy, how did it go, you ask? *big grins*
I've decided to purchase (pictures are courtesy of the website: http://muslimbase.com):
::Kuwaiti Hijab::
::Iqal Hijab::
They do look a bit different from the normal square hijabs I am comfortable with, but it's not wrong to try something new, innit?
Masya Allah, beautiful collection. So, my sisters, if you wish to browse through the website and have the intention to 'minta kirim' while I am here, by all means, contact me, either through here, or via e-mail and insya Allah, we can discuss it further. (Promo this! :D)
A few other websites that I tend to shop online (and trust) are:
http://www.simplyislam.com
http://www.thehijabshop.com
So, I have something to look forward in the next coupla days, insya Allah ;)
By the by, insya Allah, will be off to Colne this weekend with Kak Lin and Ida for a bit of summer sale shopping (a girl can never have enough shopping during sale season!) *cheeky grin*. And prolly next week, insya Allah, will be off to Norwich to visit T *clapping*.
On a different note, Gdah and her coursemates had a bbq thingy today at Hyde Park. Pictures were gorgeous, and I helped out a bit preparing this and that since she decided to volunteer to be the chef in preparing every dish. And when she left, I was in the mood to clean the kitchen *grins*, anything to distract myself from thinking about dissertation, eh? huhuhuh..
Orite-y then. I supposed I have to tell myself that research and readings on Work-Life Balance is far more interesting than updating the dailies of my life ;) Until next time, be safe everyone. Allah hafiz.
ALLAHUMMA TAJAWAZ 'ANNA KHATI' ATINA ALLAHUM-MARDA 'ANNA WARHAMINA WA 'AJZINA
Oh Allah, overlook all our shortcomings. Oh Allah, be pleased with us, shower mercy upon us all.
Oh Allah, overlook all our shortcomings. Oh Allah, be pleased with us, shower mercy upon us all.
Ameen Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin...
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Updates. Updates. Updates.
... read all about it...
Salaam everyone.
YES!! Refresh the page and voila, new post, new pictures. *clapping happily*
I'm currently at a friend's house. Been away from my bed, my laptop, my brain lately, hence the lack of updates. Many many apologies. I am also sleep deprived because a day before our York trip, I only managed to get a 2 hours sleep. That's what you get when you stayover at a friend's house and ended up making sushi (well, them, not me) at 2-3 o clock in the morning. Lastly, we decided to watch Hitch and eventually fell asleep after 10 minutes of the movie playing. lol.
SO. ALL. I. WANT. IS. SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP.
I have a lot of things to do; among other things. But I've been going places, doing stuff, with friends, and now I just don't know what to update about.
Seriously.
(...five seconds later...)
SERIOUSLY!!
I have a few plans lining up for the next coupla weeks. And I'm doomed to spend more and more time reading for my dissertation and proposal. Anyone wanna swap lives? *big grins*
Oh. I was at Borders' Starbucks yesterday with G and S, just hanging out, and found this book:
And you must be wondering what's the inside looks like. Us women must be wondering WHAT do MEN know about WOMEN?
So, here's what...
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!
(...er, blank pages...)
one more time.
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!!
lol.
Speaking of which, I am a proud owner of:
So, Ness, the next time I'm going to Borders, insya Allah, I'll buy you your copy ;)
FYI, pictures of Alton Towers and York trip are up. Although, nothing much, nothing major. The pictures will be deleted in a few days, for personal reasons (because I want to!).
Is that enough for now? I surely hope so.
Take care everyone.
Much love, xoxo
Salaam everyone.
YES!! Refresh the page and voila, new post, new pictures. *clapping happily*
I'm currently at a friend's house. Been away from my bed, my laptop, my brain lately, hence the lack of updates. Many many apologies. I am also sleep deprived because a day before our York trip, I only managed to get a 2 hours sleep. That's what you get when you stayover at a friend's house and ended up making sushi (well, them, not me) at 2-3 o clock in the morning. Lastly, we decided to watch Hitch and eventually fell asleep after 10 minutes of the movie playing. lol.
SO. ALL. I. WANT. IS. SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP.
I have a lot of things to do; among other things. But I've been going places, doing stuff, with friends, and now I just don't know what to update about.
Seriously.
(...five seconds later...)
SERIOUSLY!!
I have a few plans lining up for the next coupla weeks. And I'm doomed to spend more and more time reading for my dissertation and proposal. Anyone wanna swap lives? *big grins*
Oh. I was at Borders' Starbucks yesterday with G and S, just hanging out, and found this book:
And you must be wondering what's the inside looks like. Us women must be wondering WHAT do MEN know about WOMEN?
So, here's what...
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!
(...er, blank pages...)
one more time.
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!!
lol.
Speaking of which, I am a proud owner of:
So, Ness, the next time I'm going to Borders, insya Allah, I'll buy you your copy ;)
FYI, pictures of Alton Towers and York trip are up. Although, nothing much, nothing major. The pictures will be deleted in a few days, for personal reasons (because I want to!).
Is that enough for now? I surely hope so.
Take care everyone.
Much love, xoxo
To fulfill your eyes. Part II
... a day in York, Designers' Outlet is eeeeeeeeevvvviiiillll! :D:D
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Do you dare....
.... to take a ride on Oblivion...?
I did ;)
Salaam everyone.
Pictures of Alton Towers trip would be up soon when I have the time (even though inda banyak but will post about it). At the moment, I got other priorities to take care of, insya Allah when all goes well. Pray that everything will turn out ok, Jazakallah :D
How's everyone doing? Be safe...
xoxo
I did ;)
Salaam everyone.
Pictures of Alton Towers trip would be up soon when I have the time (even though inda banyak but will post about it). At the moment, I got other priorities to take care of, insya Allah when all goes well. Pray that everything will turn out ok, Jazakallah :D
How's everyone doing? Be safe...
xoxo
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
A week's worth of waiting...
Salaam everyone. (yes, you can grin all you want because when you refresh this page, there's a new post - yay!)
I am doing just fine, thanks. Alhamdulillah, with slow progress, me being away from blogging and my online-life, has done me good. When I said I wanted to concentrate more on my personal life here in Leeds, I actually did it. And I'm planning to do so until the end of the month, actually. :D. If you asked, of course I miss everyone. But thanks for understanding, I needed this to regain my strength, refocus my attention, re-mend my broken *coughtrustcough* and rethink about what's more important in my life right now.
In case you're wondering, yes, I'm still on-hiatus. But I cannot let go today without so much blogging about what's been happening this past week. AND BECAUSE ISAID SO WANTED TO.
ARE YOU READY??
Alhamdulillah, the exam last week went smoothly, even though at one point, I actually forgot what I read and only remembered about it the next morning thinking, there's no point now!! lol. But, there goes all my nine months of studying for HRM at Masters level, 6 assignments, one exam and excruciating amount of hours spent on reading and now I only need to concentrate on my dissertation for the summer and I'm done!! YAY!!
My apologies for not replying to any comment/come-back soon messages (and I was contemplating on bringing back my tagboard, but malas this!). Nice to know my devoted readers are still around and interested to read. teehee. Waves at cave-man, long time no see dude! Hugs and kisses go around to Tintin, Wani, Fina, Ammey, Sis Alai and of course to my silent readers, my siblings. *grins*
The past week has been - eventful.
Soon after the exam finished last week, a couple of us went to city centre to have lunch and not discussing about the exam questions. lol. Then, Samantha and I decided to go around window shopping and I ended up spending the night at her place for no particular reason, just because I wanted to anyways. teehee. Oh, before that, we took our class photo from the PG Office and everyone looks lovely. I made great friends here in LUBS and I'm thankful for a great memory that I'll cherish for always. You can easily spot the headscarf-wearing girl in the picture, no prize for pointing the quickest ;)
::LUBS MA HRM 2006/2007::
Then, walked back home on Wednesday, and went out again to meet up Balm for lunch and a bit of shopping (again!) because she's going back to Thailand for a month. A great day out, for sure. Not gonna talk details on this. lol. Guilty as charged!
Rested fully on Thursday.
On Friday, I had a very bad cramp so I decided to sleep it off and Alhamdulillah, when I woke up, Scrubs-marathon brighten up my night, as I laughed my head off all night, alone. Sad?? More like FUNNNEEEHHHH!!!
On Saturday, it got interesting. With Manchester's lost to Chelsea (Booooo!!!!), I got a bit... ergh! But anyways, I attended a kinda-like forum about ibu mithali, with keluarga penyayang, with tips untuk mendapatkan keharmonian dalam keluarga berteraskan Al-Qur'an dan Sunnah Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. as well as Islamically. YES IT WAS GOOD, despite the fact that the men were less reluctant to attend due to the clash with FA Cup Finals (yeah, that's more important to them then listening to stuff like this - iyatah kan, during the session, one of the wives actually brought this up, how they find it unfair for the men to leave the responsibilities of upbringing of a family entirely to the wives, even though they actually play a very important part in the children's lives, not to mention that di akhirat nanti, the first thing that Allah will ask the husband is their responsibilities towards their wives and children, and at some point, Kak Azie included that family is regarded as a 'pelindung' for the husbands that keep them from terhumban terus ke dalam neraka, which reminds me of how 'heavy' or berat the responsibilities of a husband/man is in a family). Now I lost my flow. lol. Oh yeah, the session was good because it made me think more and more about the kind of guy that I want to end up with. Insya Allah, Allah knows best.
After the forum, Kak Ina and I headed to city centre to meet Ida and Kak Izan as we were heading to Nando's in Kirkstall. After waiting, and waiting, we arrived at Nando's around 9-ish and food was already ordered so we ate, took pictures. Oh, it was a farewell dinner for Kak Ina, who'll be leaving UK back to Malaysia, for good at the end of the month, insya Allah. She gave a take-a-moment-to-ponder that makes me will miss her more when she's gone. She received a present from all of us in the form of a hard rock cafe t-shirt which she LOVES to bits. You should've seen her reaction upon opening the box, the table practically was shaking. lol. It was worth it.
Pictures. [have been removed]
On Sunday, the MSCL has a bowling tournament. As usual, had to arrive early at the bowling centre as Kak Ina's personal ready-as-you-are assistant, volunteered, of course. *grins*
There were 10 groups, and each team has 6 members. My group was called "langsat", don't ask me why it's named after fruits, but that doesn't matter because what matters is, although I didn't win anything individually, but our group was the CHAMPION!!!! Thanks to team-members, Emi, Rohaida, Hazwan, Abang Jo, Abang Jaafar and yours truly. How did our team win? Well, most of us scored constant 9's and scored a few strikes, and half strikes (including me jua tu aaah) and well, Emi played well! Honestly, we all contributed to the overall scores!! Not a waste of us cheering at the back!! It was a fun day out, seriously!! I think I'm getting better at bowling (practice makes perfect jua, inda jaaa?), Bah, zif.. come down to Leeds and we bowl! :P
After bowling and prize presentation, went back to Harehillls to Kak Ina's place for dinner, bought Nasi Briyani Ayam and caught bus ride back home, alone. I don't get scared nowadays because daylight goes on until 9-10 at night baru tah kan gelap. Happy this!! And slept the night through.
Today, monday.
I was in the mood to reshuffling my room. Interior reshuffling I called it because I got bored of the old layout. And a fresh position kinda gave me the kick to blog today as well. Teehee. I love cleaning!!
Afterwards, went out to Leeds Met Uni, for what??
GYM ANDAEROBICS STREET DANCING.
Sirius!!
GYM! ME!! GYM!!!
Lol.
There's always a first time for everything, no? Well, this is me. I'm no gym-going type of person but I'd jump to the opportunity of going, especially when I have nothing much else to do at home. lol. And it was well-worth it. In fact, as I'm typing now, my whole body's aching. After about an hour of gym-cycling-bicep-leg-exercising bits of this and that, we (Rohaida and I) headed to the dance studio. Noaerobics, instead, it was street dancing session. STREET DANCING? hee. I never knew it was so much fun!!! (Fins, now I know why you take dance classes/lessons) I'm no dancer but following simple steps and doing it over and over again kinda got me going a bit. lol. An hour of 5, 6, 7, 8, step front step side turn turn overlap turn, we headed to Highway for paninis and wanted to get myself B&J's Chocolate Therapy skali no stock.
So, Ida and I parted and I walked back home reminiscing my week and headed to Abu Bakar as that's the second shop in Leeds that I know sells B&J's Chocolate Therapy and I walked back home a happy girl.
Got home. Rested. Showered and my whole body's aching as I type this. But I love you too much that's why! And my apologies because honestly I haven't found my inspiration to post a proper topic, although I do have a few issues/topics on mind that I want so much to write about, insya Allah, when the time is right, that'll happen. Ness, how about connecting the laptop straight to the brain thing? lol. Easy that!
Before I go, I'll leave you with the upcoming events that I'll indulge myself this coming week:
- Off to city centre with Samantha, insya Allah, for a bit of shopping and I need to buy rempah, bahan-bahan for the recipes - Ayam Percik and Buttermilk Chicken, yes yours truly is planning to be a good girl, a housewife in the making, because believe it or not, one of the recipes is by request. *zips lips*
- Prolly rest the coming days because on Saturday yours truly is off to ALTON TOWERS, insya Allah with the malaysians and bruneians. Wiiiippppieeee!!
- Prolly trying out the recipes either on Friday or Sunday, depending on the availability of my sue-chef to cook nasi goreng as requested by yours truly while I struggle to try out something new. Compromise this, have to be fair la :D
- And books to accompany me during my resting time in my room :)
Okeh, I personally think that would suffice the devotion of you all for visiting and revisiting my blog for now, right...? ;)
Okeh, everyone. May Allah protect you always, and may His blessings and redha be with your every step in this life.
Off I go to rest my tired muscles.
Nyte everyone. Until next time, insya Allah. Be good everyone. Be happy.
All my love,
xoxo
Salaam.
I am doing just fine, thanks. Alhamdulillah, with slow progress, me being away from blogging and my online-life, has done me good. When I said I wanted to concentrate more on my personal life here in Leeds, I actually did it. And I'm planning to do so until the end of the month, actually. :D. If you asked, of course I miss everyone. But thanks for understanding, I needed this to regain my strength, refocus my attention, re-mend my broken *coughtrustcough* and rethink about what's more important in my life right now.
In case you're wondering, yes, I'm still on-hiatus. But I cannot let go today without so much blogging about what's been happening this past week. AND BECAUSE I
ARE YOU READY??
Alhamdulillah, the exam last week went smoothly, even though at one point, I actually forgot what I read and only remembered about it the next morning thinking, there's no point now!! lol. But, there goes all my nine months of studying for HRM at Masters level, 6 assignments, one exam and excruciating amount of hours spent on reading and now I only need to concentrate on my dissertation for the summer and I'm done!! YAY!!
My apologies for not replying to any comment/come-back soon messages (and I was contemplating on bringing back my tagboard, but malas this!). Nice to know my devoted readers are still around and interested to read. teehee. Waves at cave-man, long time no see dude! Hugs and kisses go around to Tintin, Wani, Fina, Ammey, Sis Alai and of course to my silent readers, my siblings. *grins*
The past week has been - eventful.
Soon after the exam finished last week, a couple of us went to city centre to have lunch and not discussing about the exam questions. lol. Then, Samantha and I decided to go around window shopping and I ended up spending the night at her place for no particular reason, just because I wanted to anyways. teehee. Oh, before that, we took our class photo from the PG Office and everyone looks lovely. I made great friends here in LUBS and I'm thankful for a great memory that I'll cherish for always. You can easily spot the headscarf-wearing girl in the picture, no prize for pointing the quickest ;)
::LUBS MA HRM 2006/2007::
Then, walked back home on Wednesday, and went out again to meet up Balm for lunch and a bit of shopping (again!) because she's going back to Thailand for a month. A great day out, for sure. Not gonna talk details on this. lol. Guilty as charged!
Rested fully on Thursday.
On Friday, I had a very bad cramp so I decided to sleep it off and Alhamdulillah, when I woke up, Scrubs-marathon brighten up my night, as I laughed my head off all night, alone. Sad?? More like FUNNNEEEHHHH!!!
On Saturday, it got interesting. With Manchester's lost to Chelsea (Booooo!!!!), I got a bit... ergh! But anyways, I attended a kinda-like forum about ibu mithali, with keluarga penyayang, with tips untuk mendapatkan keharmonian dalam keluarga berteraskan Al-Qur'an dan Sunnah Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. as well as Islamically. YES IT WAS GOOD, despite the fact that the men were less reluctant to attend due to the clash with FA Cup Finals (yeah, that's more important to them then listening to stuff like this - iyatah kan, during the session, one of the wives actually brought this up, how they find it unfair for the men to leave the responsibilities of upbringing of a family entirely to the wives, even though they actually play a very important part in the children's lives, not to mention that di akhirat nanti, the first thing that Allah will ask the husband is their responsibilities towards their wives and children, and at some point, Kak Azie included that family is regarded as a 'pelindung' for the husbands that keep them from terhumban terus ke dalam neraka, which reminds me of how 'heavy' or berat the responsibilities of a husband/man is in a family). Now I lost my flow. lol. Oh yeah, the session was good because it made me think more and more about the kind of guy that I want to end up with. Insya Allah, Allah knows best.
After the forum, Kak Ina and I headed to city centre to meet Ida and Kak Izan as we were heading to Nando's in Kirkstall. After waiting, and waiting, we arrived at Nando's around 9-ish and food was already ordered so we ate, took pictures. Oh, it was a farewell dinner for Kak Ina, who'll be leaving UK back to Malaysia, for good at the end of the month, insya Allah. She gave a take-a-moment-to-ponder that makes me will miss her more when she's gone. She received a present from all of us in the form of a hard rock cafe t-shirt which she LOVES to bits. You should've seen her reaction upon opening the box, the table practically was shaking. lol. It was worth it.
Pictures. [have been removed]
On Sunday, the MSCL has a bowling tournament. As usual, had to arrive early at the bowling centre as Kak Ina's personal ready-as-you-are assistant, volunteered, of course. *grins*
There were 10 groups, and each team has 6 members. My group was called "langsat", don't ask me why it's named after fruits, but that doesn't matter because what matters is, although I didn't win anything individually, but our group was the CHAMPION!!!! Thanks to team-members, Emi, Rohaida, Hazwan, Abang Jo, Abang Jaafar and yours truly. How did our team win? Well, most of us scored constant 9's and scored a few strikes, and half strikes (including me jua tu aaah) and well, Emi played well! Honestly, we all contributed to the overall scores!! Not a waste of us cheering at the back!! It was a fun day out, seriously!! I think I'm getting better at bowling (practice makes perfect jua, inda jaaa?), Bah, zif.. come down to Leeds and we bowl! :P
After bowling and prize presentation, went back to Harehillls to Kak Ina's place for dinner, bought Nasi Briyani Ayam and caught bus ride back home, alone. I don't get scared nowadays because daylight goes on until 9-10 at night baru tah kan gelap. Happy this!! And slept the night through.
Today, monday.
I was in the mood to reshuffling my room. Interior reshuffling I called it because I got bored of the old layout. And a fresh position kinda gave me the kick to blog today as well. Teehee. I love cleaning!!
Afterwards, went out to Leeds Met Uni, for what??
GYM AND
Sirius!!
GYM! ME!! GYM!!!
Lol.
There's always a first time for everything, no? Well, this is me. I'm no gym-going type of person but I'd jump to the opportunity of going, especially when I have nothing much else to do at home. lol. And it was well-worth it. In fact, as I'm typing now, my whole body's aching. After about an hour of gym-cycling-bicep-leg-exercising bits of this and that, we (Rohaida and I) headed to the dance studio. No
So, Ida and I parted and I walked back home reminiscing my week and headed to Abu Bakar as that's the second shop in Leeds that I know sells B&J's Chocolate Therapy and I walked back home a happy girl.
Got home. Rested. Showered and my whole body's aching as I type this. But I love you too much that's why! And my apologies because honestly I haven't found my inspiration to post a proper topic, although I do have a few issues/topics on mind that I want so much to write about, insya Allah, when the time is right, that'll happen. Ness, how about connecting the laptop straight to the brain thing? lol. Easy that!
Before I go, I'll leave you with the upcoming events that I'll indulge myself this coming week:
- Off to city centre with Samantha, insya Allah, for a bit of shopping and I need to buy rempah, bahan-bahan for the recipes - Ayam Percik and Buttermilk Chicken, yes yours truly is planning to be a good girl, a housewife in the making, because believe it or not, one of the recipes is by request. *zips lips*
- Prolly rest the coming days because on Saturday yours truly is off to ALTON TOWERS, insya Allah with the malaysians and bruneians. Wiiiippppieeee!!
- Prolly trying out the recipes either on Friday or Sunday, depending on the availability of my sue-chef to cook nasi goreng as requested by yours truly while I struggle to try out something new. Compromise this, have to be fair la :D
- And books to accompany me during my resting time in my room :)
Okeh, I personally think that would suffice the devotion of you all for visiting and revisiting my blog for now, right...? ;)
Okeh, everyone. May Allah protect you always, and may His blessings and redha be with your every step in this life.
Off I go to rest my tired muscles.
Nyte everyone. Until next time, insya Allah. Be good everyone. Be happy.
All my love,
xoxo
Salaam.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Actions speak louder than words...
Salaam.
It has been an eventful day. Very eventful indeed. It's harsh in a way, but 'refreshing' at some point, revealing and uplifting can also be included to explain it. I guess, life is full of surprises, yes? And, what are the odds as well??
I drew up a few conclusions but of course I'm not gonna post it here.
But it has been eventful.
Do you know that actions indeed speak louder than words? Even though, in my case, I tend to say it with words MORE than I do with actions (in certain cases) and finding myself regretting for saying those things in the first place. lol. Typical.
With that said, there are just so many things I wanna say, but often, most times, I restrict myself from just blurting out stuff. I learned my 'mistakes' and past experience the hard way. Now, insya Allah, I think before I speak (well, most of the time when emotions don't go along with my mouth), and the good thing about blogging is... I can delete or save any post as draft when I feel like it's not appropriate to post it up. You can say that sometimes it's just better to 'let it all out' without having to let everyone else reads it (for fear of who might be reading and quote it back to me in the future)...
Sigh. I'm tired, really. And I haven't done much readings/revision today :S
And I have discussion tomorrow as well. How meh??
I'm not blaming today. What happened today, has happened. And you know what I think? I think that Allah knows best. Maybe ada hikmah disebaliknya kan? Allah knows best. Wallahua'lam.
It hurts, I admit. It hurts when I felt like denying everything, wishing it's not 'it', but deep down I know it's real. It hurts. But, instead of screaming and jumping to a few conclusions (like how I used to be), I stayed calm, and confronted in a calm manner, and Alhamdulillah :) now things are... ok, insya Allah.
Funny but.... I guess this is what I would call "adult relationship" (lol, lets not dwell into that for now). With every 'slap' (hypothetically speaking) I get, I still get up, and it makes me a more stronger person, making me more patient with how to deal things, and lets me learn from the mistakes and experience. Well, don't take my word for it... sometimes you have to experience it yourself to agree with this notion. I'm not generalizing it to everyone.
Plus I think (and know) that Allah is there to guide me as well, because He gives me great friends and listener who helps to guide me as well... Alhamdulillah.
Everything happens for a reason. If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Insya Allah, may today be a reminder for myself that life's like this. One minute when you're happy, you have to be prepared to face sadness as well, only then you can embrace life without so much to complain and question why things happen or didn't happen.
Life is easy. So take it easy. Set up your principles, aim to achieve them, tawakkal and enjoy the journey. (says him)
My response? "I'll see you in T in J, insya Allah" (an example of action speaks louder than words this!)
*grins*
Nyte now.
ps. Thanks you!
It has been an eventful day. Very eventful indeed. It's harsh in a way, but 'refreshing' at some point, revealing and uplifting can also be included to explain it. I guess, life is full of surprises, yes? And, what are the odds as well??
I drew up a few conclusions but of course I'm not gonna post it here.
But it has been eventful.
Do you know that actions indeed speak louder than words? Even though, in my case, I tend to say it with words MORE than I do with actions (in certain cases) and finding myself regretting for saying those things in the first place. lol. Typical.
With that said, there are just so many things I wanna say, but often, most times, I restrict myself from just blurting out stuff. I learned my 'mistakes' and past experience the hard way. Now, insya Allah, I think before I speak (well, most of the time when emotions don't go along with my mouth), and the good thing about blogging is... I can delete or save any post as draft when I feel like it's not appropriate to post it up. You can say that sometimes it's just better to 'let it all out' without having to let everyone else reads it (for fear of who might be reading and quote it back to me in the future)...
Sigh. I'm tired, really. And I haven't done much readings/revision today :S
And I have discussion tomorrow as well. How meh??
I'm not blaming today. What happened today, has happened. And you know what I think? I think that Allah knows best. Maybe ada hikmah disebaliknya kan? Allah knows best. Wallahua'lam.
It hurts, I admit. It hurts when I felt like denying everything, wishing it's not 'it', but deep down I know it's real. It hurts. But, instead of screaming and jumping to a few conclusions (like how I used to be), I stayed calm, and confronted in a calm manner, and Alhamdulillah :) now things are... ok, insya Allah.
Funny but.... I guess this is what I would call "adult relationship" (lol, lets not dwell into that for now). With every 'slap' (hypothetically speaking) I get, I still get up, and it makes me a more stronger person, making me more patient with how to deal things, and lets me learn from the mistakes and experience. Well, don't take my word for it... sometimes you have to experience it yourself to agree with this notion. I'm not generalizing it to everyone.
Plus I think (and know) that Allah is there to guide me as well, because He gives me great friends and listener who helps to guide me as well... Alhamdulillah.
Everything happens for a reason. If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Insya Allah, may today be a reminder for myself that life's like this. One minute when you're happy, you have to be prepared to face sadness as well, only then you can embrace life without so much to complain and question why things happen or didn't happen.
Life is easy. So take it easy. Set up your principles, aim to achieve them, tawakkal and enjoy the journey. (says him)
My response? "I'll see you in T in J, insya Allah" (an example of action speaks louder than words this!)
*grins*
Nyte now.
ps. Thanks you!
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
I'm in love....
.... with my new shower gel.
Salaam.
Okay, title's a bit of a shock. Bet you all are wondering upon reading the title, who is the person who has won my heart. Well, sorry to disappoint you folks, it's just my new shower gel that's so refreshing that I cannot wait to take shower every morning. lol. Weird, I know.
I handed in three (and also the last) assignments for my Postgraduate studies (insya Allah) even though two of them are due tomorrow and the day after. Good girl, no? Time management, actually. I love it!! That sudden rush was lifted when I handed them in this morning at the PG Office and suddenly all I wanna do is stay still and enjoy the moment. But reality check, I have to revise for my one and only exam next week. Insya Allah, pray that it'll be alright.
So, my blogging now is to reward myself for being so stressed out and happy for the past four or so weeks dealing with readings, and readings, and oh, wait for it... more readings... now I only have one week to indulge myself in, well, waddaya know... MORE reading. But this time, insya Allah, it'll be about something I can personally use to argue points in a constraint amount of time - hence, examination.
I should've been out shopping, really, as that always works best as a way to de-stress, but the girls and I decided to hang out for a bit at the cafe in Business School, discussing about the assignments (what else..?), the upcoming exam topics, what's been happening in our lives recently, plans to do right after the exam (precisely, after 12pm, 15th May, 2007), and yada yada yada. Oh, and of course, cups of hot chocolate and latte. *grins* That was good enough to de-stress.
Soon after, S and I went to the library as I needed to return half of my borrowed books (No, Ness, no fines this time - teehee) and half are still scattered around for my revision. Got lunch at Highway, walked back home and watched movies online.
The day hasn't been wasted. I took a quick nap to refresh and read one revision topic. I cooked dinner and apparently sliced/cut two of my fingers without me even knowing and noticing them until I washed and noticed my skin's slashed and I'm thinking, "ai... bila ku terkarat? how come aku nda sadar? how come nda bedarah? how come nda sakit? how come nda padih? bila? bila bila bila?" (yes, apparently I asked myself these questions). Klutz!!
Discussion/change of ideas with the study group will happen this thursday, insya Allah.. so yay!! And now, I'm blogging...
But if you must know, I am definitely in love at the moment;
- I am in love with my life, a student in Leeds Uni Business School - despite the amount of reading I have to do, but still... I LOVE THE CHALLENGE!!
- I am in love with Leeds itself (obvious this!!)
- I am in love Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Therapy (yums this!!)
- I am in love with you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you (....and the you's goes on)
- I am in love with LOVE
- oh, and with the new shower gel, of course!
What more can a girl ask, eh?
And what goes on without saying that, actually and honestly, only Allah knows what's in my heart, He knows whose Love I am still struggling and trying to win...
"Ketahuilah dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang" (Ar-Ra'd 13:28)
Good luck and all the best guys, for the upcoming exams/dissertation/viva...
Here's me, planning things for upcoming events after exam.
Nyte!!
Salaam.
ps. Ness, come back, come out of the jungle and keep me company!! :P
pps. Sorry guys, supposed to be on hiatus (I KNOW!) and posts are not really interesting, but me talking so much helps self to de-stress. (Balik-balik jua notion of de-stress nya ani eyh..), insya Allah, when the inspiration comes, then it'll be a worthy and knowledgeable read.
ppps. I've finished reading the book "Tentang Cinta", sapa mau pinjam?? ;)
xoxo
Salaam.
Okay, title's a bit of a shock. Bet you all are wondering upon reading the title, who is the person who has won my heart. Well, sorry to disappoint you folks, it's just my new shower gel that's so refreshing that I cannot wait to take shower every morning. lol. Weird, I know.
I handed in three (and also the last) assignments for my Postgraduate studies (insya Allah) even though two of them are due tomorrow and the day after. Good girl, no? Time management, actually. I love it!! That sudden rush was lifted when I handed them in this morning at the PG Office and suddenly all I wanna do is stay still and enjoy the moment. But reality check, I have to revise for my one and only exam next week. Insya Allah, pray that it'll be alright.
So, my blogging now is to reward myself for being so stressed out and happy for the past four or so weeks dealing with readings, and readings, and oh, wait for it... more readings... now I only have one week to indulge myself in, well, waddaya know... MORE reading. But this time, insya Allah, it'll be about something I can personally use to argue points in a constraint amount of time - hence, examination.
I should've been out shopping, really, as that always works best as a way to de-stress, but the girls and I decided to hang out for a bit at the cafe in Business School, discussing about the assignments (what else..?), the upcoming exam topics, what's been happening in our lives recently, plans to do right after the exam (precisely, after 12pm, 15th May, 2007), and yada yada yada. Oh, and of course, cups of hot chocolate and latte. *grins* That was good enough to de-stress.
Soon after, S and I went to the library as I needed to return half of my borrowed books (No, Ness, no fines this time - teehee) and half are still scattered around for my revision. Got lunch at Highway, walked back home and watched movies online.
The day hasn't been wasted. I took a quick nap to refresh and read one revision topic. I cooked dinner and apparently sliced/cut two of my fingers without me even knowing and noticing them until I washed and noticed my skin's slashed and I'm thinking, "ai... bila ku terkarat? how come aku nda sadar? how come nda bedarah? how come nda sakit? how come nda padih? bila? bila bila bila?" (yes, apparently I asked myself these questions). Klutz!!
Discussion/change of ideas with the study group will happen this thursday, insya Allah.. so yay!! And now, I'm blogging...
But if you must know, I am definitely in love at the moment;
- I am in love with my life, a student in Leeds Uni Business School - despite the amount of reading I have to do, but still... I LOVE THE CHALLENGE!!
- I am in love with Leeds itself (obvious this!!)
- I am in love Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Therapy (yums this!!)
- I am in love with you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you (....and the you's goes on)
- I am in love with LOVE
- oh, and with the new shower gel, of course!
What more can a girl ask, eh?
And what goes on without saying that, actually and honestly, only Allah knows what's in my heart, He knows whose Love I am still struggling and trying to win...
"Ketahuilah dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang" (Ar-Ra'd 13:28)
Good luck and all the best guys, for the upcoming exams/dissertation/viva...
Here's me, planning things for upcoming events after exam.
Nyte!!
Salaam.
ps. Ness, come back, come out of the jungle and keep me company!! :P
pps. Sorry guys, supposed to be on hiatus (I KNOW!) and posts are not really interesting, but me talking so much helps self to de-stress. (Balik-balik jua notion of de-stress nya ani eyh..), insya Allah, when the inspiration comes, then it'll be a worthy and knowledgeable read.
ppps. I've finished reading the book "Tentang Cinta", sapa mau pinjam?? ;)
xoxo
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Salaam everyone.
Below are two of most recommended Malay nasheeds from malaysian nasheed groups - In-Team and UNIC.
The lyrics kinda get to me to the heart. But, different people might take it differently, yes? I get that. Insya Allah, may it brings a little kesedaran for us. It's better than nothing, kan?
I have been busy and haven't got anything to update as well. Apart from my fun days spent with reading. You guys must be sick and tired of hearing me talking about readings.. heehee.
But anyways, on a good note (well, everything pun good note bah.. *grins.gif*), I have been very rajin doing a lot of readings. I don't know how I handle it, I mixed everything, from reading academic journals, to reading some of Islamic books I have in collection, to reading some Islamic related issues/articles/posts online. To tell you the truth, *whispers* I'd prefer to spend my days reading about Islamic related issues Maybe I should ambil topic research regarding HRM and Islamic matters...? Adakah tu??? heehee. Or or or, I just concentrate on Islamic related issues! *big-smile.gif*
Sebenarnya kan, banyak banar wah what I wanted to say, but at some point, I just feel like it's best not to dwell on them... it's good enough to say that I am sihat Alhamdulillah (fyi, I was sick last week with a fever... :( - and I didn't tell mama about it, afraid she would say "dun work too hard..." teehee). Lately ani pun, if you have noticed, I have been a dedicated listener to nasheed songs on my iPod, be it if I'm walking (that's a must tuuu...) or while I'm reading, or while I'm just... doing nothing. The other day, I tuned in to PCD - Buttons, and all of a sudden, I miss listening to In-team's nasheed... and so what happened? I changed it back. lol. Cali jua if I think about it...
I'm thinking... life's too good to complain on petty small things. Yes, sometimes I do get lonely especially when listening to nasheed songs about the blessings of being married *grins.gif*, but I'm thinking... Allah knows best, and insya Allah, one day I will be able to feel and experience the blessing of that as well...
Anyways, been staying up until late night lately. But I need not worry much because I have no more classes to attend. Even when easter break finishes in about 3 weeks' time, I only have assignments and exam to hand in and attend respectively. SCHWEEETT!!
Okay, this is me sleep-typing actually. That's why it's all nonsense and useless. lol.
Night Leeds, Morning Brunei!
Allah hafiz.
p.s. S's still in Qatar. At some point, I es missing his stinkiness. :(
Below are two of most recommended Malay nasheeds from malaysian nasheed groups - In-Team and UNIC.
The lyrics kinda get to me to the heart. But, different people might take it differently, yes? I get that. Insya Allah, may it brings a little kesedaran for us. It's better than nothing, kan?
I have been busy and haven't got anything to update as well. Apart from my fun days spent with reading. You guys must be sick and tired of hearing me talking about readings.. heehee.
But anyways, on a good note (well, everything pun good note bah.. *grins.gif*), I have been very rajin doing a lot of readings. I don't know how I handle it, I mixed everything, from reading academic journals, to reading some of Islamic books I have in collection, to reading some Islamic related issues/articles/posts online. To tell you the truth, *whispers* I'd prefer to spend my days reading about Islamic related issues Maybe I should ambil topic research regarding HRM and Islamic matters...? Adakah tu??? heehee. Or or or, I just concentrate on Islamic related issues! *big-smile.gif*
Sebenarnya kan, banyak banar wah what I wanted to say, but at some point, I just feel like it's best not to dwell on them... it's good enough to say that I am sihat Alhamdulillah (fyi, I was sick last week with a fever... :( - and I didn't tell mama about it, afraid she would say "dun work too hard..." teehee). Lately ani pun, if you have noticed, I have been a dedicated listener to nasheed songs on my iPod, be it if I'm walking (that's a must tuuu...) or while I'm reading, or while I'm just... doing nothing. The other day, I tuned in to PCD - Buttons, and all of a sudden, I miss listening to In-team's nasheed... and so what happened? I changed it back. lol. Cali jua if I think about it...
I'm thinking... life's too good to complain on petty small things. Yes, sometimes I do get lonely especially when listening to nasheed songs about the blessings of being married *grins.gif*, but I'm thinking... Allah knows best, and insya Allah, one day I will be able to feel and experience the blessing of that as well...
Anyways, been staying up until late night lately. But I need not worry much because I have no more classes to attend. Even when easter break finishes in about 3 weeks' time, I only have assignments and exam to hand in and attend respectively. SCHWEEETT!!
Okay, this is me sleep-typing actually. That's why it's all nonsense and useless. lol.
Night Leeds, Morning Brunei!
Allah hafiz.
p.s. S's still in Qatar. At some point, I es missing his stinkiness. :(
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